Speaking to You

"I don’t know what to do,1

It seems you want me blue.2

Or do you want me red?3

Possibly dead?4

I know you want me to frown,5

So don’t clown.6

But you want me to smile,7

And I don’t know what to do, except walk these miles.8

I need to think of what to say,9

All I know is that I love you more each and every day.10

So don’t play with me,11

And make me see12

What you’re doing to me.13

I don’t know how to say it,14

So I just don’t say a bit.15

And I shut my lips,16

As I watch the ships17

Pass from the harbor.18

Sure, we can play barber,19

But who’s above the chair,20

Cutting the hair?21

And who’s in the seat,22

Getting beat?"23

"Here I am, sitting on the corner24

Looking like a foreigner.25

But who is in a home,26

Resting as light was shone27

Through the window?28

And who doesn’t even say hello,29

When I walk by your house?30

You, that’s who, and you douse31

My hope every day32

When you refuse to say33

A word to me, your eternal lover,34

The one who will forever hover35

Around your town36

Wearing his permanent frown.37

Look into my eyes,38

And you can tell my hope touches the sky.39

I never give up; I never give in.40

To me, forfieting is a sin.41

And for me, quitting is difficult,42

Because it‘s hard to stop quitting, just like a cult.43

I drive myself into the ground44

And I pound45

My fist into the air.46

I do care,47

And you know it, yet you dare48

To reject my love.49

I still come back after you shove50

Me away,51

But I’ll be back later on today.52

Do you have dreams?53

The seams54

Of your soul?55

Or is it torn apart as a whole,56

Shattered into pieces57

So many times that it nearly ceases58

To even exist?59

Unball your fist,60

Because all I did was ask61

You to take off your mask.62

Temporarily of course,63

But now your voice is hoarse.64

Force will get you nowhere with me,65

But I can clearly be66

Your best friend, or even an enemy.67

So come on girl,68

Give me a whirl!69

You know I love you,70

Yet you treat me like it isn’t true.71

Am I so much of a fool72

That you believe I drool73

On myself?74

I don’t, nor should you leave me on the shelf.75

I need you, more than anything,76

Because you are all that can bring77

Happiness into this whithered soul.78

I know your heart is not as black as coal,79

So why do you treat me like you do?80

I hear the crowd boo,81

But I ignore those people.82

They’ve never been in that steeple,83

Nor have they ever seen the world through my eyes.84

Their only concern is to spread lies85

And slander, all leagally done86

Under the heat of the morning sun.87

It’s like our lives are as they want,88

With you rich and me gaunt;89

With you happy and me depressed.90

I feel so distressed and suppressed,91

And I can only feel pain.92

As I sit here under the rain93

And get soaked down to the bone.94

I hear you answer the phone,95

But I can’t think of anything to say.96

I’m so nervous that all I can say is hey,97

And when you ask who I am,98

I feel like a damn99

Idiot for calling,100

And I feel like I’m falling.101

So I hang up really quick,102

And I stick103

My foot through the glass door.104

I tremble in horror,105

Because I’m scared that I’ll get caught.106

I’ve fought107

In wars and I’ve looked the Devil in the eye.108

Yet every time you reject me, I feel like I’m going to cry.109

Who all can hear me?110

Because no one fears me,111

Even though they should.112

They could113

But they don’t,114

And they won’t.115

They say I’m not the violent type,116

But all this does is hype117

Me up, as if it would help at all.118

But don’t worry about the nervous phone calls,119

Because they’re from a man in love,120

Watching as you slip on your gloves,121

And step outside.122

But on your inside,123

You know you’re being watched,124

So you try to blotch125

Out your thoughts126

Of me, the man who fought127

For your life.128

But after my strife,129

When you left me bleeding,130

I wanted my heart to keep beating,131

And I nearly died.132

But God dried133

My tears,134

And banished my fears,135

As he gave me a second chance.136

And so I’ve enhanced137

My perceptions of reality,138

For it’s all in how you see.139

So come along,140

And stop singing your sad song,141

And you should come to learn.142

Remember though, respect is something to earn.143

Increasing what you know144

Is sure to show145

Your intelligence.146

Just open the fence147

Of your mind.148

You need to find149

Your path, but choose150

Wisely, for you could lose151

Things very important to you.152

This’ll make you feel likey ou have the flu,153

Because you’ll be in pain and illness.154

I turned my head when I saw you kiss155

That strange man.156

But what good can157

Come from jealousy?158

None can, and that’s what I now see.159

So I’ll wait my turn,160

And I’ll feel the burn161

In my heart.162

So go ahead, check out your cart,163

And leave me behind in this store,164

Along with all these other things galore.165

Leave me on the street,166

Looking like a month ago was when I had something to eat.167

And start ignoring my phone calls,168

And hide in the halls169

Whenever you hear it ring.170

Never bother to bring171

Aything to me, for I don’t need it.172

Don’t bother buying shoes that don’t fit,173

And clothes that are too large, or too small.174

Just let me fall175

Off of the face of this world of ours.176

Let the cars177

Run me over.178

Bury me in thick clover179

And dirt.180

I’m tired of feeling this hurt,181

And I want to be released.182

My heart cannot be pieced183

Together again.184

It’s torn and put in185

A large, gray jar.186

But how far187

Away are my ashes?188

Are they below watching as lightning flashes?189

Are they being digested in a fish,190

Deep down under the ocean where we wish191

To explore?192

Are they being sweeped off some person’s floor,193

And dumped into the trash?194

What has become of my ash?195

I’ll never know, however,196

So let me sever197

My ties to you.198

I have to find out who199

I am, but that’ll have to wait.200

I feel that I’m too late201

To even start on that project.202

What could I expect203

To get from it anyway?204

It’ll only play205

With my emotions.206

But I’ve made the notion207

To stop thinking like that,208

Because I sat209

All alone to make my decision.210

It came to me in a vision211

Late one midnight.212

I could see my breath that cold night,213

And every time I exhaled,214

Part of my life was unveiled.215

Decisions I made, and their counterparts;216

Actions taken and actions of which I didn’t take any part.217

I’ve seen eye-to-eye with many,218

Whether I agreed or not wasn’t any219

Of my own concern.220

I finally can burn221

Away my memories of what’s been.222

And I’ve seen sin,223

Along with righteousness,224

And I must confess225

That I believe in free will.226

So go ahead and kill227

Off one more man228

If you can.229

It’ll let me out,230

And then I can shout231

Into Heaven my findings.232

I’ll leave my Earthly bindings.233

If it’ll break me away234

From all of the pain I feel each day,235

THen it’s worth losing my life for.236

You don’t know that you’ve killed my core.237

My heart, mind, and soul:238

These three things have holes239

Ripped into them by the agony I’ve felt.240

I’ve knelt241

On the tile242

And prayed while walking on my knees for a mile.243

I needed help; a hand to guide244

My thoughs from suicide.245

I’ve considered it,246

And I know it’s strange coming from one who never quits.247

But it seemed right at the time.248

Now I feel like I almost comitted a crime.249

Put yourself in my shoes,250

And you’ll start to feel the blues.251

Get stuck in a place252

And your mind will race.253

You’ll feel the stress254

And it’ll undress255

Your sanity.256

Stare into the vanity257

And tell me what you observe.258

Do you think I deserve259

Anything whatsoever?260

You must think you’re clever261

Since you’ve never tried real love.262

But you’ve watced many-a dove263

Fly into the clouds.264

Are you proud265

Of me now?266

That I’ve not gone to plow267

Down everything I’ve built?268

Hold the blade by the hilt,269

And you’ve got a sword.270

Hold the weapon by the sword’s edge and ward271

Away enemies and you’ll cut272

Your palm, and you’ll wait for it to shut273

And to scar274

Over, but that’s little in the future too far.275

But there’s nothing to worry about,276

So you have no reason to shout or pout.277

You have no right278

To make me lose sight279

Of my dreams.280

It seems281

You want me gone, out of your life,282

This would be easy if you had a knife283

Or a gun.284

But then there’d be no fun285

Or point in using it on me.286

Because I’ll always be287

Right here for you, and you know that.288

So take off your hat289

That you use to disguise290

Yourself and hide among guys291

And unwise people like half of the population,292

And three-quarters of our nation."293

"How do you feel now that you have him?294

How do you feel now that your life is in sin?295

I want to save296

You, but the things you gave297

Me are the opposite of what I need298

To keep you from doing those bad deeds.299

I lay on my cross and bleed300

So that you can live.301

I need you to give302

Me everything I ask for.303

I don’t mean to be greedy by asking for more,304

But I’m desperate for you to see it;305

I’m desperate to save your spirit.306

So come along with me,307

And I’ll open up your blind eyes so you can see308

That you’re in a false reality.309

Please, for both of our sakes,310

Some effort and recognition is all that it takes.311

Accept me into your life, along with the things I say,312

Because I want you to stay.313

So what do you say to my plea?314

What will it be?315

A life of sin or of liberty?316

A life of evil and eternal burning,317

Or a life of heeding those warnings318

And an eternal stay in comfort?319

Don’t contort320

Your face,321

It makes you lose your pace322

And eventually your values.323

I’ve given you clues324

And tried ot guide you,325

Even though you always reject326

My offers and avoid the subject327

Of me completely."328

"How can you be329

So ignorant of me?330

I’m everywhere,331

Anywhere,332

And everything.333

Can you fling334

Me a chance?335

It’s like you refuse to glance336

At me at all.337

Can you not help but to stare at that wall,338

And think about the unexplained?339

I’ve strained340

To speak to you,341

But you’ve come unglued.342

How can you think343

That you can wash sin off of your hands in a sink?344

You can’t blink345

And the sin be gone, vanished from your soul.346

You can’t climb up a pole347

And expect to reach Heaven.348

Even with the lucky number seven,349

You’ll be in no-man’s land350

Where nobody will give you a hand.351

Have you ever heard of our names?352

They have the most fame353

Behind them, more than any other.354

They’re names that your own mother355

Has probably said.356

Some of us speaking to you are dead,357

And some of us are alie and well.358

So tell359

Me if you know360

Who I am before I show361

You exactly what I am.362

Listen close, for even the lamb363

Knows the name so odd,364

That only one can go by it, so nod365

Your head if you’ve ever heard of me: God."