16 and Awake. (chapter 1 Pyjama party)

The day dawned bright and sunny, I woke early and listened to the birds beckon in the day with their sweet song. I stretched wriggling my toes, trying to remember what was special about today. Then in a wave of pleasure it hit me, today was my sixteenth birthday! I had planned a sleepover for tonight with my five best friends, Lucy, Anna, Marina, Gemma and Sukie, I wasn't due to meet them until four o clock, but could barely wait. I heard footsteps on the stairs, and following a gentle tap on the door my parents and younger brother entered my room laden down with cards, gifts and breakfast. Birthday breakfast was a tradition in our house, always served in bed, and always the same thing....banana pancakes with chocolate drizzled over, and a strawberry smoothie delicious. After we'd all stuffed ourselves with pancakes, I was handed my cards, a plethora of the things, it took me twenty minutes to open and read them all! By the time I finished I was £150 better off, I sat thinking 'oh I can buy that ring, and a bracelet and that new top I liked, and some jeans!' Mo had other ideas though, she told me I could take £50 with me when I met up with my friends at the shopping centre, but that she would take me shopping the day after. I turned my attention to the presents next, delighted to receive an I-pod from mom and dad, the ring I had been wanting for ages from Aunt Bella, a huge tigger from my grandparents, and a delicate silver charm from my brother {I appreciated the thought, but had no bracelet to hang it on}.1

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The hours seemed to drag, I showered and dressed, straightened my bed, and dashed up the stairs to the attic, where my party was going to be. Mom had ensured that there were air beds, pillows and sleeping bags for the six of us, the stereo was on a table surrounded by a stack of Cd's, and there were banners, balloons, and steamers decorating the walls. I positively jumped into the car at three thirty, and mom drove me to the shopping centre, we agreed that my friends and I should be back by pm, and that we could order pizza then. 3

"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Cally, happy birthday to you" I flushed red but giggled at Marina, Sukie and Anna, and together we awaited Lucy and Gemma. We dove straight into Starbucks, and had Frappacino's all round, before we hit the shops. I spent 25 minutes agonizing over whether I should pay £40 for those jeans, especially as mom had only let me bring £50 out, and finally decided that I would prefer to buy a bracelet, and the top I had coveted for weeks. The others went to try things on, so I browsed for a few minutes before picking up a dress, and joining the others in the fitting rooms. Marina and Sukie weren't there, so I chewed the fat for a few minutes with Gem, Anna and Lucy. We went to the jewellers next, and I choose a thick silver bracelet with three charms, and remembering the little angel from my brother Kirby, asked the jeweller would he attach that too. I asked Marina to fasten it, and as her fingers brushed the inside of my rest, that hot flush started in my groin, and radiated up until I could barely breathe. This was getting weird, every time she hugged me, when her lips met my cheek, when i brushed and styled her hair, the feelings would overwhelm me. I can't be gay I thought to myself, or I would react the same with my other girl friends. However I knew i must be, I didn't look at boys the way the others did, didn't drool over the boy bands, or fantasise about kissing male teachers. I knew my parents would support me no matter what, and that they would not disown me for being gay, after all mom's sister has been married to a woman for ten years! But I could imagine the way my friends would react, especially Marina who seemed to be the only object of my desire. I was certain they would dump me, and call me a freak and a perv, the subject had come up in Phys ed the week before, when a boy in our year had admitted he was gay, the whole class including my friends had jeered those things at him.4

The six of us gathered in Starbucks once more, and over cappuccino's and hot chocolate we sat and told jokes and discussed boys {me just listening}. I sat and stared into my coffee for a moment, then digging in my jeans pulled out the remainder of my cash. £23 slightly too little to get the top I really wanted, I fished for my phone and called home asking mom if I borrowed the £6 from one of my friends, could I take it out of my birthday money to repay it. She agreed, and I asked if one of them could lend me £6 till we got back to mine. Sukie handed me £10, and I got up to nip to Diva, next door and get it. I had picked out the green, and was holding it in front of me when I saw in the mirror that Gemma was behind me, she shook her head, and picked out the same top in turquoise. I held it up and discovered that the colour gave my cheeks a faint flush, and picked out the green flecks in my hazel eyes.5

Shopping finished for the day, we hopped on the bus, and went home. We ordered pizza's, and climbed up to the attic to eat. We all changed into our pyjama's, and I had to avert my eyes as Marina stripped, her thick dark hair glistened in a curtain down her bronzed back, and I saw glancing in the mirror her pert breasts topped with small brown nipples, and the dark thatch of hair between her legs. I inhaled sharply as my nerves danced, and my sex ached. We sat in a huddle around the floor, music playing in the background. My parents had agreed that we could have a few alco-pops, and we each grabbed a bottle of pineapple hooch. We got a little tipsy after two bottles each, and started to play truth or dare. It became louder and sillier as it went along, and then finally the question I dreaded was asked "Cally, who do you most want to kiss?" "dare"was my reply. My dare was to kiss Sukie, and I took a deep breath and pecked her gently at the corner of her mouth. That's not a kiss Gemma giggled, and she leant over and kissed Sukie firmly, her tongue sliding into Sukie's mouth. We all sat and stared fascinated as they kissed longer and deeper. I was throbbing gently, immensely turned on at the site of those two feminine mouths clasped together. Sukie moaned deep in her throat, and her arms snaked around Gemma's waist. A silence fell as they broke apart, flushed and embarrassed, Gemma denying that she'd enjoyed the kiss, and Sukie saying "it's no biggie, you all know I want to be an actress, I just went into role and imagined she was Duncan Blackwell, oh he is dreamy". We spent a few more hours talking and giggling, and then turned the music down, and slipped into our beds. Anna turned the lights out, and I snuggled into my sleeping bag.6

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About an hour later, the sounds of sleep were all that could be heard, I slipped out of my sleeping bag, and went over to turn off the music. "Cal" I slid over to Marina and asked "whats up, can't sleep?" Marina opened the edge of her sleeping bag, and I climbed in beside her.8

"Cal, when Gemma and Sukie were kissing, I kept wondering what it would be like to kiss a girl, do you think I'm awful?" " Gosh no Marina, kissing is so natural, and we all think that at some point" inside I was crying out kiss me kiss me. As though she could hear my thoughts, Marina turned my face towards her, and planted a gentle peck on my lips. The resulting fizz of electricity was almost audible, and we looked deep into each others eyes, and kissed once more.My body hummed with pleasure, as wave after wave of desire coursed through my veins. I could feel the satin of my pyjama bottoms moistening as my vagina contracted. Feeling brave, I slipped my hand under Marina's t-shirt and stroked her chest lightly, ensuring not to touch her breasts just in case she pushed me away. To my delighted surprise however, she placed her hand over mine and slid them onto her right breast. It was warm and soft, and if I dragged my nail just there on her nipple, it strained and caused a low moan to escape from Marina's throat. We explored each other slowly, becoming accustomed to the body of the other, and also the pleasurable sensations that various places elicited when caressed. Soon we were bare, and the sensation of skin on skin, and the silky inner of the sleeping bag scraping over bare flesh were heady. Marina pressed her hand between my legs, rubbing gently over my pubis, and sliding a finger between the outer lips. My muscles clenched and tensed, and a glorious feeling of release transcended my body, my legs seemed to prickle with mini electric shocks, a feeling so sensuous, exciting and new, I gasped as her finger pushed gently inside me and the pleasure built once more. I gently adjusted my position, so that I could explore her body too, gasping with pleasure as her finger wriggled and crooked inside me. I slipped my hand down, and stroked her secret place, revelling in the moistness and warmth I found there. I ran my finger up between her lips, and was stunned to find a hard little nub. Marina cried out as my finger brushed it, and so I did it again and again, becoming quicker and quicker, finally sliding a finger deep inside her hot tight wet chasm. OOOOhhhhh ye ye yes she cried out, and a hot wetness flooded my finger and hand. Marina removed her finger, and sought out the place on me that had caused her so much pleasure. Her thumb brushed over the area, and I gasped at this new more intense pleasure, it felt so good, and then her finger seemed to slip slightly, and the pleasure decreased a little. Marina kept rubbing in this spot, and the intense heat that had built subsided. I moved slightly, until her finger was in the spot again, and cried out as wave after wave of pleasure coursed through me. We lay there together, just holding each other and sharing the occasional kiss, until the sun began to rise. Slowly we pulled our pyjamas back on, and kissed once more before sliding into our separate sleeping bags.9

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Morning brought a new shyness that had not existed the night before, and Marina and I barely said two words to each other. After breakfast, they all went their separate ways. Marina and I shared a lingering look as she slid into Sukie's mother's car, and I knew things would be fine when she held her finger and thumb to her ear in imitation of a phone and mouthed "call me".11