Moving hummmmmm, well let me say this much, I hate it. And once my happy little rear-end is back in Arkansas where I belong, I will never again move if it can be helped at all. Never again I tell you.1
When we decided to move to south Louisiana,in June '04 we truly had blinders on. We moved here without a place to live or without knowing a single person. Try finding affordable and suitable housing in 2 weeks (yea right). We did find a 2 bedroom in a nice place, but it just was not big enough for a family our size. Plus I was not use to my husband working 24 hours straight. It was hard for me to adjust.2
I was depressed as well, we actually thought moving would help me. But it didn't, it only made things worse. I just lost myself a little more each day. It got to where I was either in bed or on the computer all the time. I never wanted to clean house or cook or even spend time with my kids. I did manage to do all those things when my husband was around, but it wore me out. He could always lift my spirit for a day or two when he was not working. It didn't help that our middle son had remained in Arkansas till mid August to receive his Jr. Black Belt in Karate. 3
It was about this time I stared a great and lasting friendship with a wonderful young lady I meet in a chat room.4
We finally found a 3 bedroom house we could afford, only because I was working as well by this time.The house was nice, it was just located in a bad part of town. Things were looking up for us, Jenn was coming to visit in Oct. for 2 weeks. We were finally getting it together, looking forward to our first southern Christmas, but all that changed with one phone call.5
My father-in-law passed away in early Dec. We made the trip back home with our monthly bill money. So that set us back a bit. And that threw me back into a state of depression. Hell we were so broke we could not even have Christmas.6
But by March things were looking up again, I was working again.Then I was diagnosed with CHF (congestive heart failure) and was put through a series of test while the doctors decided what else was wrong and what to do about it. After a few thousand dollars and a lot of sleepless nights, they fixed a hole in my heart. So now I am fine as far as my health goes. 7
However in the midst of this my step-father became very ill and was hospitalized for 3 weeks before passing away. We were unable to attend the funeral due to various reasons.8
My friendship with Jenn began to crumble at this time as well. I only hope she knows how much I miss her and that I love her dearly.9
So now it has come full circle, we have decided to return home, to the very place we called ourselves escaping from. But if the truth be known you never miss what you have till it is not there anymore. I learned a valuable lesson. You never know how much family and friends mean to you till they are not there.10
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Wow
You have lived a lifetime of chaos in this piece but remembered what is important in life and that's family. Keep em coming. Take care and God Bless.
Michael
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Justine I can not wait to be back HOME. I miss everyone so much. And i am sorry everyone was so worried about me, but to tell the truth I was worried too.
Love you
kathy -
Jenn you just don't know how much I need to hear those words hon. I love you and miss you so much. Trust me I understand the confussing state of mind. LOL
I miss you girl
Kathy -
Oh Kathy, this made me cry. Now I am glad they finally got everything with your heart fixing.. I was definately worried about you. And I wish you hadn't left Arkansas in the first place. But it will be great when you and the rest of the herd are back in town. I think once you are back here you will feel like you belong again and things will settle back down to normal. Just remember we all love you and can't wait for you to come home.
Justine -
Hon this is sad.. And I want you to know something YOU HAVE NOT LOST ME!! I am always here for you hon.. I am sorry if you felt like our friendship has crumble I never meant for that to happen.. I know I should of be more then but I am in a very sticky and confusing state of being now.. And Hon I love you.. You are a very strong women and I know that you will over come this depression.. and it is true you never know what you have until it is gone.. But hon want to let you know something I AM NOT GONE!!! just hidden under this big old bolder that has came crushing down one me.. I love you and J.. and when you are settle in Arkansas I will be there to see yall!!!
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wow....you have a lot of talent there......you have a great imagination....and yes, i can relate to your shuff....but anyways, i hope the best for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! great write
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AWWW... AP Auntie Kat!!! I'm so glad you posted this!!! It really tells a lot about you and your awesome family!!! I'm glad you are back "home" here in Arkansas!!! (Where are you in AR though??? LOL)... Anyways... Welcome home
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Hugs,
Beth -
This is so sad. I know how difficult this must be for you, but remember, you have many friends on here
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That, unfortunatly, is how life works. It sucks like that. But I have a feeling that things will start to pick up for you guys. I've learned in life that things might go wrong for a little while and all of a sudden things start going right. I've also learned that those good things seem so much bigger after a hard time.
You know I'm always pulling for you guys. You, Jody, and the kids rock. I know we've been playing IM tag for the last week or so because we keep missing each other like that, but you know I'm always here for you.
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i love learning about you your a fantastic writer
~Krystal
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don't worry i moved alot in my life too it totally sucks i hated it too i lost all my friends hey i told my self i would never move again and i haven't for the past 4 years how many people i have 8 people in my house 4 girls in one bedroom 2 boys in another parents also in a bedroom i don't even have an upstairs when we moved i wasn't my self either for awhile but i came back i agree like somtimes your best friend can pisss you off but when they move or you move you miss them alot well love the story it is really good hope every thing is going good where you are now
~nnoi~
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