Wait On

I walked through this door wondering what you thought of me. I looked at you and your girlfriend holding each other. I couldn't look at you. Whenever I walked through those school doors so I could go to Biology, you looked up at me. Every time. You'd smile and say hi to me. Even if you two were in the middle of something. I'd walk fast so I couldn't see you two kissing each other. She didn't like me that much. She'd look at me like I was trying to steal you.1

"She's afraid of you, you know?"she whispered.2

"Nah, see look. Angelica!"3

I turned and looked at you and said,"Yeah?"4

"Are you afraid of me?"5

"Of course not!" Smiling some.6

"See? We understand each other" Now facing her.7

She just looked at you blanked faced.8

I was now turning to leave.9

"Oh, see you later!"10

"Yeah, later."11

Another time, when I passed by you two eating lunch sitting on the ground and leaning on the wall while holding each other, she just got closer to you defensively. I glared at her and tried to ignore you. But every time you'd say hi really loudly to make sure I'd hear. I'd say hi back and start for P.E. Then of course, you'd say bye really loudly again so I'd hear. I didn't realize that you really liked me so much. Was I so dim? In the summer time when we hung out for the first time ever, you were making signals like you wanted to start a relationship. I'd heard you broke it off with your girlfriend. So I had my chances finally with you. We had some intense conversations about pretty much all me. Such as, my past relationships, love it's self, what I like, what I thought about certain things, what kind of a person I was, and well everything. Things I didn't usually share until I knew this person well. 12

It was like we were going to finally be together. Then when I found out about what I thought was your ex, you were with her again. But your friends kept telling you to ditch her. I felt as if you were leading me on. Sometimes, I feel hate, sorrow, love, and compassion for you. It depends on how I look at the situation. Tell me, should I wait on?13