Waiting For You

There is a certain point when a person knows when to give up. I don't think I can give up just yet. I am not quite there yet. Kenna told me that he likes me a lot, she assured me so. 1

"He doesn't want to believe that his girlfriend is no good. He's looking for a long relationship and she's just looking for some fun. You know? She gave his BEST FRIEND head! HEAD! In his room! What kind of girlfriend would be so stupid to do that. It's even her boyfriend's room. It makes me sick. I told him about it. He said he didn't believe me, but I know he does. He just doesn't want to believe it. I assure you, he likes you a lot. But he's having problems right now."2

I just looked at her. No expression at all. I was really hurt. I knew that if I gave up on him, and when he finally broke up with her to come to me, that he'd be so very hurt. I can't look at his face and know that I was another that let him down. I waited even before I knew he liked me. I'd made a big mistake before. I've waited about a forth of a year already for him. I liked him a lot and still do. I'll just have wait through this obstacle. When I really got to know him, I knew this was the guy I had to be with. I asked Kenna why he was never online and she helped me and told me about this. She said that he really did like me, but since he has been with his girlfriend for so long, that it'd be a while for him to realize it and get over it. I just told myself since I waited for so long already, that it wouldn't hurt me to wait a little bit longer. I feel like my waiting for him would be rewarded with me having a fair chance with him. 3

"Sorry sweetie, but he just doesn't want to believe that his girlfriend is a slut." I felt so sorry for him. He didn't deserve this kind of treatment. I smiled and nodded. I understood. I wouldn't want to believe when my ex had grabbed another girls butt at a party. It wasn't like him. It hurt me, and I guess it still doesn't feel like it really happened. I want to help him but unfortunately he's never online and can't talk to him. I haven't talked with him for weeks. But even if it takes him a while to realize it, then he comes to me feeling horrible, it'll be fine. As long as he comes back. It seems like I am asking a little much. I know it'll happen. I've waited this long. He sounded like he wanted me when I hung out with him. Asking tons of questions about past relationships and pretty wanting to know how I worked. So I know I have hope. Just now isn't the right time. Sure he's about three years older, but it doesn't matter to me. I'm sixteen and he's almost 19, it seems like a lot when you're a teen. I don't care, I fallen for him. Does it sound like it? But know I cannot possibly give up on him. I care for him too much.4