i will not...

i gasped having just been kicked in the gut!steel toed boots.1

"Say it!"he yelled.2

"no..you may kick me..and torture me,...but he and i...still love you.i pray for you,....for all my enemies."i said in panting broken off whispers.3

this time he hit me across my face.i could taste the blood in my mouth.i was already on the floor so all i had to do was put my head down and pray.Pray to my loving,merciful God!he realized what i was doing so he yanked me by my hair.I could feel some of the hair being pulled straight from the roots!i continued to pray ignoring the ecrutiating pain.4

"he wont hear you renounce your faith and we'll immediatly free you...bow down to our ALMIGHTY GOD!"his voice picked up at the end.5

"he hears me,he loves me,he cares for me!whatever i go through hes right there beside me!ge gives me the strength to persevere!"i wasnt afraid of a human man but of my GOD!a human man could only harm me physically God could do so much more!i have been a sold out christian since i was 13 yrs old! i discovered jesus christ and the Almighty God through my mother and step father!i fell in love with him the way he loved me!he sacrificed his only son for me!No, not just for me but for the whole world!he loves me and no matter what i will NOT renounce my faith in the Lord i love,and believe in!6

"you idiot!"he sneered.7

i looked toward the sky though i could only see the ceiling.8

'Lord,help me to withstand and persevere through everything.I know that all that i go through you are there with me...i dont regret coming here to share the Gospel it was your will and i obeyed.Thank you Lord i will praise you even as they torture me,through the darkest time i will praise your Mighty Name!i plead the blood of Jesus over my body lord.In jesus name i pray,Amen.'9

"what do you think he cares whether you live or die?he doesnt!If he did why would he let you go through all of this torture?"a smirk was playing on the edge of his lips.10

"throw her in her cell."he said walking away when i didnt answer him.11

God did care!12

i had been in this cell for 2 yrs.I didnt get hypothermia anymore from the col,dampness of the cell floor.I didnt get heat stroke during the day that much anymore.My cell was made completely out of cement when it got hot the heat stayed when it got cold the coldness would stay.i was used to getting food once a day and if lucky,twice.13

i had also helped people get saved in the jail to.i knew scriptures for i was a Martyr,i travaled all around the world sharing the Gospel.Getting caught happened sometimes,especially in communist countries.I was not only ministering to people but also distibuting bibles secretly.14

How could i go in front of millions of people and renounce my Faith?The very faith that brought me through the toughest times in my life...I LOVED GOD NO MATTER WHAT!15

He wasnt just some thing ordinary!how could some people have the Odasity to compare to anything?Anything at all?He was so much more there are no words to describe him!16

Tears welled up in my eyes as i slowly started to sing to the Only one who was always there.My GOD!My songs were songs of Praise and Worship!17

"take me into the holy of holies,take me in by the blood of the lamb,take me in to the Holy of Holies,take the coal,touch my lips,here i am.."i sang.18

"what is that?UUGGHHH...Eileen stop singing!"the general yelled.19

i didnt stop.20

"open the cell...NOW!"he growled.21

the light broke through,blinding me momentarily.something pulled me by my collar.i was thrown onto the floor,I knew what was coming.22

I closed my eyes and pictured the way the Bible described Heaven.23

I saw gold streets..Angels singing praise..God Sitting on the throne..Jesus sat at his right hand side..It was GLORIOUS!24

i winced a little while i was getting the beating.My Body registered every jab and kick,but my mind could not be distracted from such a wonderful vision!25

I barely noticed when they picked me up and carried me back to my cell-carried me only because the beating left me bleeding,bruised,and sore.26

'Thank you lord,if it wasnt for the vision i wouldve been in excruciating pain during the beating.You helped me through it!'27

i thought thankfully.28

Alot of us-Christians-were beatin often due to the fact that we stood strong and firm.29

We will not renounce our Faith,Our God!30

The next day was the same.31

"dont you wanna see your family,Eileen?your sisters,brothers?Your MOTHER and FATHER?"his tone sincere,but i knew it was show.32

" i will in due time..God will do as he pleases..NOT my will,but HIS will must be done!I've put my selfish needs aside its not just about me..im part of something bigger!"i explained.33