I wasn't supposed to end up like this
you and me
You're not 'spose to stare at the sky
I'm not supposed to cry1
I was never a problem before I opened my big mouth
Silent unrequainted like
Is easily forgotten
when you're joking about health class
and splitting a cherry coke2
Just milling around school campus
Bad Azz* to the bone
Chillin and rockin
on how we roll
just a couple of buddies
nothing more3
But then I began to wonder
if it could ever be just
us two
I thought that maybe I had a chance
to be with you4
I told one too many people asking for advice
It took me several weeks
to even think of what to say
and now I'm paying for my sins
back cold rear view of your head5
This wasn't meant to happen
we were just supposed to be friends
just laughing and glaring
at others
who just didn't understand6
But now there's that boar in the room
making it hard to meet the eyes
I told you not to worry about it
I said that I'd be fine7
But i could feel it in the way you stood
I could see it in your txt
I know I've opened Pandora's box
I'm just pissed that now all our friends know8
So now I sit here at my computer
Typing away a feelings that need to die
Ok that we're who we are
But still sore at what never will be9
Maybe I've learned my lesson
Maybe we'll never be the same
or maybe this is just a dream
from drink or smoking in my sleep10
You'll prolly never see these words
that thousands others will critique
I'll just pretend I never said anything
And you'll go on like it was just a tease11
It hurts right now I know
as tears drops interrupt my thoughts
but some day soon I won't care
And as a guy you'll definitely forget12
So tomorrow after school
at Benito's with out fail
I'll chat with you about meaningless stuff
and complain about college mail13
and you'll sit there smiling like you always do
we eat and laugh
then pay and leave
going separate ways like usual14
A simple paradox that I, 'til now, could not see
Author notes
I really need to learn to pay attention to stuff. I'm a little tired of shedding tears over guys. I mean this time it was my fault completely. I walked myself into this, so i wonder if that means it hurts less or more. Idk I feel a little numb right now. I Really wanted to cry thins afternoon but I couldn't.
But like now I know there was no point. This is still one of my best guy friends (although two days ago he really pissed me off by being so ambiguous). Also listen to friend who tell you to tell him, is such a bad idea. I am putting that near the top of "DO NOT DO!" indefinitely.
NOW on to the real stuff, if you are still reading this of course. I want to know what you think. This poem is not under the "don't critique" genre. I want to know if you connected to it. I want to actually improve this poem because I'm working trying to make a novella out of all my sappy love sick stuff. So critique me. Tell me what I need to fix or what you didn't get. Ah-thank you.
("')('...')("')...hee look it look like a turtle being arrested 
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Comments
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Nice write! It fits my contest completely! I hope you and your guy friend work things out better than me and my guy friend. Good luck in the contest!
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Another very well done write....For someone who likes to hide your emotions, they sure show through quite powerfully in your writing. (That is a good thing, do not change it!!) This had pretty good flow, and all and all was a great read.
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Pretty good poem, straight from the heart. Were you trying to rap with the modern lingo? xD
I liked it and I can totally see where you're coming from. Sometimes friends are just off limits, but you can't always say 'no' to your feelings. Often, things like this don't bode well, but sooner or later things will get patched up and you'll be friends again. Despite the outcome you came to, it's not always a bad choice to just come out and tell them. You risk rejection and possibly shaking up the relationship, but at least you took the chance. Now that you know for sure it's just friendship, you can let the amends do their thing and just be patient with the healing.
Honestly, I couldn't really get the hang of the flow of the wordage. Changed up from time to time, the syllables and whatnot. That doesn't matter, though, if you're just pouring your heart out, so
The street talk was kind've enjoyable, too.
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