My Story

Ok, SO! You want to know me? You want to know \ABOUT\ me? *GOOD*! I'm glad! Because I MIGHT grow to be famous! HAHA, hopeful thinking, huh? Well...here it goes!1

I have depression...ya know...that disease that makes you feel lonely and sad almost 24/7! But...I'm strong...strong enough to keep away from suicide. Almost...THREE years ago was when I almost hit rock bottom...MY rock bottom, which would have been locking myself away forever or running away. I was online almost everyday chatting in various singing chatrooms...trying to chat and sing my feelings away. And then...one day...I met an angel! (Don't take anything I say COMPLETELY literally!) She was in the same chatroom as I was and she was crying. Well, being naturally curious and caring, I pestered her until she told me what was wrong. Her best friend had just died and she just couldn't handle it.2

So, we IMed back and forth for months, just listening to eachother's problems and providing support for one another. She even began sharing the Word with me and...I have to admit, I didn't listen that much. And then...one day...I got on the computer to find her in hysterics and begging me to TALK to her. I was so confused, so I asked her, "You mean...on the phone?" and that is \exactly\ what she meant! And I thought...\On the phone...WHY would she want to talk to me ON THE PHONE?\3

*WANNABEFAMOUSSINGER: *But...I don't have long distance!4

*GOOD OLE COWGIRL: *PLEASE! I need to talk to someone!5

*WANNABEFAMOUSSINGER: *Um...lemme see if I can go get a phone card or something...6

I went and asked my mom to buy me a phone card or if she could just drive me up to the circle, but BOTH were a no go! I became upset and ansy. I climbed back onto the computer and told her that I'd be back because I had to go get a phone card. So, I trudged up the hill to the corner store and bought a $10 phone card with my own money and then raced back down to my house. That was prolly the fastest I walked...EVER! So, I got back online to get her number and tell her that I could call. When I dialed, I kinda knew what to expect, but I still was taken aback to hear her voice.7

We talked for hours. She told me all the details of her husband's ALMOST death! Which happened like this:8

Ten minutes before it happened she prayed to the Lord, "Lord, please protect me and my family! I know that something is about to happen and just _\PLEASE\_ keep everyone that I love and care about safe! In Jesus' Holy Name, AMEN!" And then the plot unfolded! Her husband was working out in the shed, using the table saw. He had the protector down and was pushing a piece of wood through when his hand was pulled in and became stuck. He was cut throught the middle of his hand and was bleeding out all over the place...and right in front of their little three year old. Their little boy came in crying something about daddy. That was when Monica took control, calling 9-1-1 and then putting into action all the things that she learned from being an EMT all those years...she did all she could with the equipment she had. When in the ambulance, the EMTs told her that her husband's blood pressure was 20/43 and dropping...PEOPLE, medically? That is dead or unconcious and unresponsive and he was none of those things! He was alive, concious, responsive, nonetheless *ALERT* and \TALKING\! HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE?! IT WAS A FLIPPIN' MIRACLE, THAT'S HOW!9

And that night I was saved! I said, "Monica, can we pray? Can you help me pray for salvation? And ask for forgiveness of my sins?" and we prayed...I adore Jesus for what he did for us by dying on the cross for us and I continue to ask for his forgiveness.10