Up and down

Prologue1

The sound of machine guns and cannons fills the air. Ashes pile up into black mountains. The azure sky is engulfed by thick, noxious gases. The Sun has long set for she has not had the heart to watch the great empire crumble down. Still the Elements and Atoms fight to the death, though knowing that their master no longer fighting this war. 2

“Surrender is not an option, my friends”, said one of the Elements.3

“We have always taken care of our master. And now, let show her that we are still worthy of her affections and love. As long as the CNS stands, we will fight!”4

So, for many years the Elements and Atoms fight the bestial Dictator. His allies grow strong, yet the soldiers, with the help from the Outsiders had held their defense strong. In their hearts, there is always a ray of hope, a chance to be victorious.5

Their master’s condition continues to deteriorate. The only duty she has is to stay alive, for her death means the death of her people. The Dictator and his allies had breach the barriers one too many times, seducing and charming their master to surrender. She almost fell in the dictator’s spell numerous times, yet Aid always arrives in the nick of time. 6

“Though she is not with us on the field, she is with us in our hearts”.7

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I never really remember my childhood. All I know is that I was a hyperactive, sassy child which always managed to drain the energy of others but still lit up a smile on their faces. Of my 17 years of living in this Earth, I have no clear memories of anything; just vague fragments.9

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A volcano is about to erupt. Which one? The Taal, Yellowstone or the Krakatau itself?10

This emotions are beyond my vocabulary limits.11

Here I go. Up. Down. Up. Down. A pendulum bob, I am. Watch me go Up. Down.12

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My arse was kissing the sofa. I waited anxiously for my counselor to finish. Oh my, what should I say to them? 14

“So, we have decided that it is probably best for to see a psycharitist”, said Mom.15

You can hear from her voice that she was force to make that decision, for her best interest or mine, no one knows. She and Dad were positive that this was just a phase. Denial is a powerful tool. It can completely blind you from the truth. I forgive them, for this is just a coping mechanism that they had learned from their past. Who wants a messed up child anyway? 16

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It was a cloudy day. The Earth joined us (my parents and I) mourning for our beloved daughter and sister. She was pronounced dead at 12pm this morning. The turbo engine from the L200 pick truck drowned the silence.18

“Hey dad! Why did you buy a pick truck?  This vehicle is more for those people who live in farms or works as a contractor. Not a lecturer who live in the err.. urban part of civilization”.19

No reply. Distracting them is not working. Both are caught up with their thoughts. I could sense anger, guilt, fear, confusion and a hind of shame. Couldn’t blame them. Anyone will feel that if their child is diagnosed with bipolar disorder. 20

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I can’t believe that she is gone. 22

My true self, the 14 year old bubbly girl, has gone forever. How will I survive? 23

You will be missed by all that has known you.24

I love you, so much.25

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Epilogue27

“She vows never to give up, and in her words we trust. And for that we will continue fighting until our master has become whole again.”28

[The master said] “I vow to learn all the knowledge there is about resurrection in this world and beyond. I will fight this war, with my Elements and Atoms, Antibodies and Hormones, Cells and Systems, and with Courage and Hope. For one day I believe, that you will come back from the underworld, and kill the bestial Dictator once and for all”