Like Me

Okay, so have you ever felt stuck in a haze? Like a fog arose from underneath your skin and clouded your eyes, like a piece of gauze over your head? As if your watching the world roll by in a body that just doesnt belong to you? Trapped in this little bubble, observing but never joining to become part of the whole working moving machine? A supervisor to the process? Like somehow while you were asleep, someone pressed the autopilot switch and every action every thought every movement has become systematic, automatic, not quite real in a world where the existence of reality is really just a question of opinion. Have you ever drifted so far into the hazy world of thought that your arms go numb and its like they dont even belong to you anymore? When your voice no longer belongs to you, erupts from lips that cant be yours, saying words never processed? Running on empty, not quite ever there.... Has it ever seemed that every person around you is simply a machine? Gears and cogs running in their chest? Does it ever appear to you that every tiny insignificant social interation is a incomprehensible waltz of words and thoughts and things you could never attempt to understand or repeat or copy? Have you ever felt that everything around you is insubstantial and unreal, that your perception of reality is continually shifting and you dont even know where you stand anymore? Like your stuck in this tragic dream-like state where this heavyness is wrapped around you like a thick cotton blanket seperating you from all those who seem firmly planted while you yourself are floating off into another place entirely? 1

Have you ever felt like me?