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The only thing i want to be is closer to you1

near you2

To absorb your presence, 3

let your words captivate me, swirl around me4

lifting me up to the celing in a whirlwind of golden champagne bubbles,5

tickling my throat as they twinkle and pop6

caught up in your irristable passion 7

boyish charm.8

The way your clear antartic blue eyes9

twinkle10

and crinkle at the edges when you smile that way you do.11

Oh dear god i never want to stop looking at you....12

Its odd the way you never notice how people gravitate around you,13

like planets in orbit around a sun,14

distant and silent but warm and approving.15

A life-giver.16

Magnetism 17

attraction18

pulling me to your side19

tugging me like the oceans tide.20

I cant forget the high i get when i'm near you.21

I remember the smell of your cologne22

that rubbed onto my hair after we hugged.23

The feeling of your arms round my back24

the unknown of your fingertips tracing the curves of my skin25

as if slowly remembering something from long ago.26

I love how you sing loudly and offkey27

with your silly dramatic hand motions 28

and that you always find time to talk to me...29

understand me30

and that your never afraid to look me square in the eyes....31

I love the feeling of your attention focused only on me32

like a drill in the center of my forehead.33

In this world I used to feel so alone34

a outsider looking in through fogged-up windows35

blurry glass hiding possibilities, halting beseaching, reaching fingertips.36

The loose bolt of a complete machine,37

the left over part in a working engine, totally unseen,38

But you'd look at me and laugh, 39

make me feel part of the whole. 40

Dig me up out of that hole. 41

When everyone else seemed to forget i existed, 42

you'd come along and reaffirm my reality43

convince me people actually cared44

show me i wasnt invisible. unwanted.45

unneeded. 46

So i stand here and see your striking blue eyes, smile, hear your laugh, voice,47

bath in your presence and charm48

like cold lake water warmed by the grace of the sun.49

Then walk away.50

I know that other girl is better for you anyway....