A girl like a Dandilion

I remember back in those days
how you'd wind your arms around her waist and bury your face into her pale neck.
Embarrased, i'd look away from the scene, feeling like i'd invaded something intimate and secret. You were always touching that girl,
stroking her hair, letting your fingers stroll over her skin like sunlight over rippling waves of water.1

She was everything i wasnt. Her slender legs and narrow waist were things i had always wished for, her cloud of friends, her easy smile and contagious laugh.
Most of all i wish i had her confidence.
it came so easy to her, you know? The girl wasnt like me, always striving, every social l encounter a struggle to make them happy, to find out what they expect from me and fufill the prescription. She was who she was and everybody loved her for it.
Especially you.2

I remember the day i looked and found that you werent standing in your usual spot
looking at her adoringly or lost in your laberinth of small touches.
No, you were standing in opposite sides of the room, avoiding eye contact. 3

And now I'm the one you hug and kiss, running your fingers along the curve of my back. Pushing your forehead against mine
and smiling when i trip over your feet.
do you know that you say the most amazing things? In fact, the moment i knew i was in love with you is when i asked you what you thought was the most impressive invention on earth and you didnt say fire or electricity or any expected answer.
You said "the paperclip"
cause who would ever think of that, huh? twisting a slender piece of metal to hold things together? Something so simple that we take for granted. 4

But that girl is still everything i'm not. And i'm just so tired of thinking of her everyday
and how i'll never be as good as her, never matchup. That you'll never love me as much. I'm really nothing like her.... and you deserve nothing less. Sometimes it seems you stay with me just out of fear of hurting something fragile and delicate, making it shatter like seeds off a dandilion when someone makes a wish.