The Need for the Storm

Truth, reason, intelligence –
All gone.
Sanity, clarity, stability –
Flushed away as a boat is in a storm.
The waves encompass me as I struggle for air,
Thinking that if I take one more breath I may just survive.1

But suddenly, I am swallowed whole by the water,
Not unconscious, but rather more awake than I have ever been.
The world is beautiful from here,
The sun’s rays hitting the water,
Gleaming like stars in a parallel universe.2

I now realize that I am home.3

There is no need to breathe
Because I am so engrossed in this feeling
That all senses no longer hold the same meaning.4

I am becoming stable again,
Intelligence and reason returning,
But they are completely transformed.
Figures float ahead of me,
Giving way to a world I never knew existed.
It is as though everything in life somehow suddenly makes sense,
The pieces of my life falling into place.5

But then I turn my head
And leave the majestic world I had been fortunate enough to visit.
That’s when I realize that I don’t ever want to live without your eyes,
For they transform my mind and brighten the world
In a way I only thought possible in dreams.6

Without those bright blue eyes,
Everything makes too much sense;
Everything is too rational and plain.
You eyes turn my world upside down, spin it around, and make me whole again.7

I can’t live without that.
I can’t live without the waves and the storm
And the feeling of losing myself
Only to find everything I’ve been searching for in one face.
I can’t live without you.