I am a writer ....

I am a writer.1

I write about the things that keep me awake at night. I write about what I see happeneing around me. I write about my fears, my dreams, my world - the one where I belong and where I can't feel ashamed, hurt, embarrassed, betrayed, upset and used by anyone or anything. I write about people who bring me down, just to let out my anger and frustration. I write about people that make me laugh, just so I can always remember how they made me feel. I write about things I can't change in real life, simply because in my world of fiction those things can be changed, I can create happy endings in lands of rainbows and fairy dust. I write about the words and thoughts I'm to scared to tell anyone about. I write about the girl I was, the girl I am and the girl I want to be. I write about how I want things to change. I write about how I'm scared incase things do change and I don't like it. I write about how I wish I had the bravery to run-away. I write about how I put on this front and pretend not to care what people say about me behind my back. I write about how sometimes when I'm doing my schoolwork and I can't understand it - I cry. I write about how my relastionships never work and how its always my fault. I write about drugs and drug-users and how they ruin lives. I write about how sometimes I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. I wirte about how certain songs make me cry because the remind me of things I'd long ago forgotten. I write about how much my parents bother me with their lack of understanding. I write about what makes me cry, what makes me hurt, what makes me smile and laugh, what makes me angry, what makes me frustrated but most of all I write about what I think.2

My gift to the world as of yet is unknown to me. 3

The way I look at it - I don't own any gifts. I simply have strong personaility traits. 4

One personailty trait I possess is my brutal honesty. I speak whats on my mind when its on my mind. I don't feel guilt if I hurt you're feelings because you did say "be honest". I don't get scared to voice my opinion because opinions are meant to be heard. I have fallen out with people before over my lack of refinement but I don't let it bother me because if I let it get to me I doubt I could live with myself.5

If I had to pick a personaility trait I own to offer up as a gift, I would pick my tendency to be laid back. 6

I don't see the point in letting little things bug you. I don't see the point in stressing over school exams, job interviews, work, children, social situations, intimate situations and so on. 7

My attitude is just chill out, let things fall into place themselves. 8

If it doesn't work out, simply try something else, try a different way, think outside the box, maybe even try something totally different and new because you never know - you might like the change!9

As for a piece I'm working on at the minute? I have a story thats so far three chapters long, its about a girl that on the outside is tough and unbreakable but on the inside is fragile and scared. I don't know where I'm going with it, I want her to fall in love with a guy but does life ever work out that way? So, I guess I'm just working on the plots and storyline. =] 10