4th of July and family get together

Ok, this is going to be mainly venting so.  I don't know what you all think but I think it's bullshit.  I was guilt tripped into going to my uncle's this weekend.  I was given that "it would be nice, everyone enjoys seeing you".  So I pretty much had to go.  1

I can't deal with family.  For one I just don't like them or know them.  The ones I do know are related to me on both sides, no I'm no inbred, it's hard to explain but I'm not.  Well anyways, My aunt and uncle(the ones from both sides)drive me up a wall because anything I do I get in trouble.  Then they have 3 daughters.  2

The eldest was my idol.  She was my hero, I wanted to be exactly like her, right down to the way she wrote 'touch it and die' on her crayon box.  Well she screwed up.  She was supposed to get married when I was 12 and she ended up getting pregnant.  One is a mistake.  I understand mistakes happen.  Well about a year went by and everyone knew she was pregnant again.  We all asked her and she said she wasn't.  Then she had been a bit down financially because the loser of a boyfriend who she was with(they canceled the wedding by the way)couldn't keep a job and wouldn't sell his precious comic book collection so they could even have enough to pay the bills and have food to eat.  So they went to my grandma.  My grandma asked her if she was pregnant and she looked my grandma in the eyes and told her she wasn't.  She had her second child about a month later.  Then we were at the second child's baptism.  Now my dad and the loser boyfriend didn't get along.  Like loser boyfriend(I may refer to him as dweeb ) decided to get in a fight with my aunt about something in my grandmother's drive way and he was eventually told to leave.  He said he wasn't leaving with out his kids.  My dad is VERY protective of my cousin, so naturally he is protective of the kids.  So my dad told him not to touch her(her being the first little one, Megan).  He went to pick Megan up and my dad picked him up by the throat and before anything could happen my grandma(who is a tiny woman but is strangely powerful with words) told my dad to put him down.  So as you can see they didn't get along.  So any who, second kids baptism, Kenny, we get there and we were late because I was driving.  So after mass most of the congregation let out and dweeb saw my dad and started throwing a hissy fit and going on about how my dad wasn't welcome there.  So my dad, knowing better than to start shit in the middle of a church, goes outside.  A little while later my aunt comes out in tears, she is a very over emotional woman.  Through the jumbled tears I hear that she, my cousin, was going to tell everyone she was pregnant for a third time this afternoon at lunch.  So, once is a mistake, twice and thrice isn't.  Needless to say I lost my hero.  Also, while all of this was going on, it started when I was like 12, no one thought I understood any of it because I was young when it came to age.  I understood a lot more than they knew.3

Then, something I'm not too proud of.  The middle child of my aunt and uncle is getting married in 13 days.  I ummm well there was some stuff between the groom and I that is just really awkward.  REALLY REALLY REALLY awkward.4

Then back to the present.  I always hate family stuff because it is mainly family but some friends.  I never know who I can hit on.  So I see this really hot girl so I just play it cool and try and find out who she is.  She's my 25 year old cousin.  Damnit.  lol anyways.5

So I'm in the kitchen cooking.  And I ask my dad if I can put in this dvd that I got from blockbuster the other day in.  He says sure.  Both of us forgot that the dvd player isn't hooked up right.  When the guy came to switch our satellite service he some how unhooked it.  So he said he would look at it tomorrow, so I went to sit and try and figure it out because I wanted to watch the movie tonight.  So my dad sits there and continues to tell me I won't be able to figure it out with all of those cords and eventually it kind of gets to me so I leave it alone and tell him that he won't be able to figure it out either.  I'm sorry but the computer illiterate man might not be able to get it either.  So I get yelled at for having a 'god damn fucking attitude'  to which of course I say back that I don't have a 'god damn fucking attitude'.  So my dad says he has had a hard day.  I can understand that but he can't say his day was harder than mine.  We visited his family all day.  He knows all of them and doesn't have to feel like an idiot and not know someones name and have to endure the 'omg you have gotten so big' and 'I remember this time when you were 2 and you.....and it was so cute' stories.  He loves visiting his family.  I don't.  I think I had a bit of a harder day if I do say so myself.6

Now back to the stuff with my cousins, not the hot one(lol),  Someone I trust told me that things that have happened can't be changed.  They happened and you can't go back and fix them no matter what you do.  You have to let them go.  I am trying so hard to do that.  I just wish there was a button that you could hit and make it all go away.  If you are still reading this you are a brave soul and I want to thank you for reading my pathetic little rant.7