I am sorry I hurt you when I said goodbye

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My relationship with my father is not good.
I mean it is safe.
But my father is wasted to life.
He barely makes it through.
He never really was there for any of us kids.
He never really wanted us I know that.
But he loves us I know this.
He has caused to much pain in my life. Ruined most of my feelings.

I was reading twilight last night. The scene where Bella has to leave charlie and I literally balled my eyes out. I remembered hurting my father like that. And the hurt in his eyes. His begging for me to stay.

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  So Strange
  April 14
  
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  I read this a bit ago--about ten hours, actually--and thought I'd read it again before making a comment. I think you put a lot of emotion into this piece of writing and I think your words flow so well, just as usual... but this being personal and all, I was feeling you'd be putting more emotion than usual into it... and YOU DID. I think you express your feelings very well and very freely and very truly.
  
  Keep up the great work, buddy. I hope your life gets better, now that you're out of the house and all. I also hope you can make it better with your Dad and put the pieces back together as good as you can with the rest of your family. I'm sure you will, but it will probably take some time.
  
  I love all your poems and stories... and this one, being as full of emotion and meaning as it was, was no exception. Keep up the work and have a great life.
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  C-r-a-z-y
  April 13
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  awww this poem was touching i feel ur pain T_T
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  MoonRoseWolf
  April 9
  
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  I can feel the emotion you have put into this, and it's also very brave of you to write something like this and share it with us. I have many issues with my own father (and mother), and I still don't feel I could write anything about them. 'How?' is about as far as I got.
  
  Anyhoo, enough of me, on to your poem. You conveyed the emotions well in such short stanzas, and the poem is also good because it could mean so many different things to so many people.
  
  I'm sorry he never listened to you hun, but you know you can always confide in us.
  
  Mirry

  
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  TNTrouble
  April 9
  
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  Whew ... father issues are heavy. I am much older than you and I still have not worked much on the parents destruction on myself.
  I admire this piece and I also love the pattern you weave these words into. You continue with your weird capitalization in spots, but other than that ... Good work.
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  henna.the.wicked
  April 9
  
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  I can tell that this is a heartfelt piece, you've communicated a moment, but also a history. Beautifully done ^_^

  beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 4, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.