Just not strong enough

(Dan)The pavement was caked with snow which covered a thick layer of ice. It was a bitterly cold evening. Snow fell like rays of sun , drifting gracefully delicatly to the already frozen ground. I stomped my feet to try get some feeling back into them. Why was I walking around town at 6 clock looking for her? She was probably already at home sitting by the blazing hot fire cuddled up in a blanket. How I wish I was there to.
But what if she wasnt there. What if she was just wondering around freezing her socks off lost, trying to find her way back? What if she didnt want to come back? My heart beat quickened with my pace. I had to find her. She had been missing for hours. 1

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(Kylie)My thoughts wondered back to the events of the day. It started off as any other brisk winter morning. Dan yelling at me to get out of the shower before I used all the hot water, the long chilly misrible bus ride to school siting by myself, the short boring assembly before first period.Everything went smoothly unitl lunch. I didnt speak in my classes, hide in corners, and stayed out of the way. Pressing myself into the corridor walls so I wouldnt be noticed.
I was taking my tray to my lunch table were I sat alone every day of every week. Then someone bumped into me and I tripped and spilt the contents of my tray all over Monica, ruining her new top. She screeched then slaped me across the face with her perfectly manicured hand. She spends so much time on her apparence trying to look perfect, she never is. I was so stunned I didnt know what to say. Then she lunged at me and grabbed my hair. I wasnt sure what to do so I started pulling back. I had a handfull of her bleach blonde hair in my hand. It was getting nasty and people had gathered around chanting "Fight fight fight". I had never been in a fight and I didnt like it at all! A teacher came and broke us up and we were sent to the Principle's office. All she did was ramble on about how disappointed in us she was and all that kinda stuff. Then she released Monica and asked me to stay behind.3

"Kylie, I have some bad news.." It seemed like she was afraid of what she was about to say. "There has been an accident. Your... your mother was, was rushed to hospital but.... im so sorry Kylie," she stumbled on the words. And I said the first words I had said to anyone at school for over a year... "What did you just say??!!"4

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(Dan)It was dark now. The street lamps casting a dim orange glow onto the pavement. I was starting to get really worried. It was nearly 9 and still there had been no sign of her. No one had heard from her, which didnt suprize me. She never talks to anyone other than me and Mum. But now Mum is gone... I couldnt believe it. But now isnt the time to believe it. Now isnt the time to grieve. I have to find her before she does something stupid. 6

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(Kylie)I rushed out of her office slamming the door behind me. I was running, running down the corridors. Running till my heart beat became faster then my foot steps. Running till my chest felt like it would burst. I couldnt stop running. I had to get away, away from it all. I couldnt take it. The faster I ran the further away I got. My legs were aching, my thighs felt like the muscles could rip at any moment. But I kept going. I didnt pay attention to where I was going or for how long I had been running. I just kept running till I got here. The bridge. 8

It was dark now. It had been dark for a while. The stars tiny pin pricks in the night sky. I was shivering but that was not due to the cold. I was standing on the edge of the the bridge on the icy rail, looking down at the rushing river below.
How did it come to this?
If I jumped would anyone care? Would anyone notice my disappearance? Dad might, when he stumbles in late tonight with liqure on his breath. When he comes into my room to beat me only to find im not there. He might but no one else would. No one else would care. Mum... You were the only one that would care but you arent here anymore. I took a deep breath to try calm my shivers. The cool air stinging my lungs. It would be ok. I wont have to be away from you for much longer Mum. 9

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(Dan)It was still snowing. The flaks falling on my lashes. I blinked to get ride of them and thats when I saw her. Standing on the edge looking like a broken doll, shoulders hunched shaking. The lamp she was standing under, cast an angle like glow across her. "Oh my gosh, Oh my gosh," was all I could stumble out. Please dont. 11

"Kylie?!" 12

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(Kylie)Who said my name? I turned ever so slightly to find the owner of that voice. Then I saw him, Dan. He had come looking for me. "What are you doing here? Just go." Silent tears were streaming down my face. I didnt bother to try wipe them away for they would just keep coming. "Just leave me Dan. Please."14

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(Dan)I was panicking. I didnt know what to do. "Kylie its ok." I managed to force out. "It's gonna be ok."
"No it wont" she screamed. "It never has been and it never will be!"
"Kylie listen. Mum wouldnt want this. She would want you to be strong to carry on."
"No just shut up, shut up!" she screamed. Then she was agressivly whispering. "Dad would want this. He doesnt give a *bunny* about me, about you about anything except where his next beer will come from."
Well then I give a *bunny* Kylie. I care. I love you and I cant have you leave me too. Not Mum and you. I wouldnt be able to handle it. Have you ever thought of that?? Or did you just think everything would be fine once you were gone? I need you Kylie." She was no longer the only one crying.
"I need you to." She was bearly audible. I took a few tentative steps towards her and held out my hand for her to take. "Well get through this together." She turned around slightly to take my hand but her hand never reached mine. Our fingers were centimeters apart but they never touched.
"KYLIE!" I screamed as she slipped and plumited down to the freezing unforgiving river below. I gripped the icy rail and looked over just in time to see her head go under. "Kylie no, no, no. Dont do this to me," I wept. She didnt fight didnt struggle against the current. It swept her under, swept her away. She was broken and had givin in.16

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(kylie)His eyes were sparkling with tears. I knew together we would get through. He had come to get me. To safe me. He cared. I stretched out my arm to grab his hand but in the proccess of turning I felt my feet slipped on the rail, and out from underneath me.
I was falling. There was nothing to grab onto, nothing solid to stop my fall. Until I hit the water. The relentless, hungery, furious, frozen water. The current tugged and pulled me under. The sudden cold seeped into my bones. I was weak and worn out. I didnt have the energy to fight any more. I had fought my whole life and I was tired Mum. I couldnt go on. Not any more. So I let the river take me. Steal my life. The water filled my lungs never to leave.18

Im sorry Mum.19

I Just20

Wasnt 21

Strong22

Enough.23

I just hope Dan is....