Meadow of Meaning-Twilight FanFic///Edward and Bella

The beautiful man before me glittered like he was sprinkled with crushed diamonds. His honey hazel eyes were warm and curious as he held my gaze. He lied among the pretty green grass meadow as the sun warmed his body from the dew atmosphere. It was almost hypnotizing until he spoke, “What are you thinking?” His voice was gentle, sounding like chimes being flicked against each other to make a song.1

My shaky fingers smoothed over his glowing white skin, so much like marble; a great sculpture carved out of the best stone; my own personal David. “So many things...”2

He scrutinized my expressions, although they didn’t tell much. I watched my normal hand slide against his perfect body as he let me explore his masculine structure. “Please tell me Bella. I need to know. I need some kind of clue to keep my sanity.” A smile pulled up slightly at the tips of my lips.3

“I was wishing that I could actually believe that I was here, this moment. I want to know that you’re not going to disappear like all the good things have in my life. I don’t want to be scared anymore.” 4

His fingers curled through mine, his thumb circling around on the top face of my hand. In a blinding moment he sat up where his face was so close to mine that I could smell his amazing scent across my face when he spoke. “I don’t want you to be scared.”5

“That’s not the fear I am talking about,” I reassured before I looked up into his serious eyes. Each one looked into either of mine, trying to see into my mind. 6

“I’m trying to figure you out so badly. But I’m getting no where.”7

“No,” I said plainly. “You’re wondering why I haven’t jumped up screaming and running away from you.” His head dunked down to keep away from my gaze. He knew I was right. “Well let me tell you something: I’m not going anywhere unless you want me to because I need you like you need me.” He looked up again and almost looked scared. I kept my calm and held my emotion. I was on a roll. Now I was getting somewhere. 8

“You don’t need me. You could be as happy with somebody else! You could be perfectly fine, growing old like you’re supposing to with somebody that could hold you without hurting you. Only being worried about losing you if you fell down the stairs because of how incredibly clumsy you are. You would be absolutely fine! I’m the enemy; I’m the one who could KILL you, Bella. I am the killer, the murderer.” His voice became acid when he spoke of him.9

He jumped up and raced around the forest circle invisibly of which we sat in. In half a second he was on a ledge behind me, “As if you could outrun me.” He reached up above him to pull a two foot thick branch from the tree easily; it cracked and echoed around us in the meadow. “As if you could fight me off,” he laughed bitterly. 10

He was in front of me, crouching down and leaning forward until my back moved backwards until it couldn’t any longer. I lied there motionless while his marvelous eyes changed from honey to a dark brown. I knew he wasn’t hungry, just excited. He flipped away from me and sat several feet away with his head in his hands. I sat back up, bringing my knees up so I could lay my chin on them. I watched him calm down, and then slowly looked back up at me. 11

“So when are you going to start running? You don’t need a head start... I’m not gonna come after you.”12

“Shut up.” I was startled at how I said that. At least it was only a whisper, although it sounded harsh. “Do you know how that is insulting me? You think I’m just gonna leave you? I’m staying Edward. As long as we can have I am staying with you until you want me no longer. Edward... please look at me.” I waited until he did before I continued. “Edward I really care about you. This isn’t just some teenage crush. It’s real. I know that.” His eyes were sad and lifeless. I walked over to him, even though he flinched, I didn’t stop. I knelt down in front of him and tousled my fingers through his bronze hair. “I love you.”13

He sighed, almost like a relief. “You are now my life.”14

“Good. Hopefully it’ll be better,” I teased.15

“Much.” I smiled joyfully at the progress I had accomplished. I don’t need to be afraid. He’s not going anywhere.16

“Bella,” he whispered. “I’ve been thinking of something I would like to try. But I need you to be completely still. I will not hurt you.” I nodded once, a little hesitantly, and allowed him to proceed with whatever he was talking about.17

He caressed my face between his hands, sending a chill down my spine. His thumbs traced over my lips and cheek bones. His eyes never left mine until he told me to close them. I did... My heart thumped so loudly it was embarrassing. But I was hardly paying attention to that life support. I was wondering what Edward would do next. And then in that moment his cold, soft lips touched mine, his tongue tracing over my bottom lip like his thumb had, and I couldn’t breathe period. I eventually remembered how to take in a breath once he let me though. My eyelids fluttered open and his eyes matched his angelic features once again and not so hard. He bent down his head to lie against my chest, listening to my heart that pumped rapidly. He sighed ever so warmly and looked back at me. The back of his palm slid under my eye. “The blush on your cheeks is lovely.” I smiled with caution, trying to keep my thoughts together, trying to keep myself together.18

My breath caught in my throat again as he lifted my hand to press against his face, he breathed in deeply for a few moments and then sighed. “...easier every time.”19

“Wish I could say the same thing. Does this breathing deal ever get any easier?”20

“You ARE only human, love.”21

“Thanks so much,” I scowled teasingly.22

He grinned, his teeth flashing, and held out a hand to me. I took it and we were on our feet. “By the way, I’m always and forever going to want and need you more than you do me.”