Many times i said i'd do it.

I wished at this moment in time that the world would have shut me out. 1

But it didn't.2

So i'd be alone. I suppose if I wanted that should have done it else where. does that make me selfish? 3

Anyway my life is whizzing before my eyes, although I can still see the people running towards me. I have a airel veiw of the place around me. Including my body.4

Many times i'd said i would do it. 5

No one belived. Most of the time I just said it. So now it was a joke that was past between my friends. Something that I would say. 6

There was screaming. Some hysterical the loudest of this my best friend. I started to feel guitly that she was one of the ones who was to watch me do it. 7

Some guy pulls me to the side. although it is no use. 8

The floor below me is warm with the soft gooey liquid, my body grey and cold. My lips blue and my eyes glazed over. He puts one hand around my neck as the continus flashing lights stop. The screaming dies down as i'm lifted up.  I feel abit guilty but my soul is indeed lifted and lighter. There is no pain.9

Walking along the road. Feeling depressed as usual. Maybe I should have gone to the t.t like my mom had said. Nah, all I needed was to sit infront of a person who randomly hears the same stories over and over again from hormonally depressed teenagers. The traffic lights have just changed and we missed it.10

Standing on the edge, the cars that had built up had whizzed past and afew where approaching. My best mate beside me talking a random subject. As we do.11

"Sorry to interruped, but im feeling rather depressed to day." I say12

my friend laughs. "s'ok, wana talk about it?"13

I stare into the road. "Nah, rather step out infront of the on coming car though."14

My friend laughs again and I turn and smile. Her laughter dies into nothing as there is a screech and the sound of a body hitting the car bonnet.15