All Alone, Not By Myself.

lickkmycobrah (16.59): i used you1

gabanti309 (17.03): i know.2

lickkmycobrah (17.07): i care3

gabanti309 (17.10): not enough.4

lickkmycobrah (17.10): help me make it better5

gabanti309 (17.12): you can't.6

lickkmycobrah (17.12): why not7

gabanti309 (17.12): you just can't.8

lickkmycobrah (17.13): why not?!9

gabanti309 (17.13): because it's not enough to just fix things.
gabanti309 (17.13): i gave myself to you. it wasnt enough that you took my virginity knowing full well i loved you
gabanti309 (17.13): it wasn't enough that you got away with not caring about me
gabanti309 (17.13): you had to use me one last time, right after telling me all the reasons why i would never be good enough
gabanti309 (17.13): you didn't mention that the only reason you suddenly were acting like you loved me was because you were trying to get to someone else!10

lickkmycobrah (17.15): im sorry.11

gabanti309 (17.16): you don't get it. you used me
gabanti309 (17.16): to make him jealous.
gabanti309 (17.16): you always hated our age difference
gabanti309 (17.16): but he's two years younger than me.
gabanti309 (17.16): it could've been him all those years ago,
gabanti309 (17.16): he would've been thirteen
gabanti309 (17.16): you would've fucked him anyway.12

lickkmycobrah (17.17): what the fuck is that supposed to mean?
lickkmycobrah (17.17): i'm not a fucking pedophile. i never was13

gabanti309 (17.17): yeah, and i was never underage being fucked by a guy six years older than me /sarcasm!14

lickkmycobrah (17.17): it's a little late to call me out on that, isn't it
lickkmycobrah (17.18): i made you come so hard you cried.
lickkmycobrah (17.18): you were never fifteen when you were on your knees.15

gabanti309 (17.18): don't talk like that.16

lickkmycobrah (17.18): why not? sorry, are you having a hard time dealing with the fact you had the sex drive of a bitch on heat? that it wasn't just me being some pervert, some kind of molestor? fuck you.
lickkmycobrah (17.18): don't fucking bring the past up if you can't deal with it. you know i hate that shit.
gabanti309 (17.19): of course, because it's always about you, isn't it. it always has to be your terms.
lickkmycobrah (17.20): i had every intention of staying with you, you know that? you put him in my hands. you talked to him, you... you basically told him to come take me off you. i was going to stay with you, forever, but you decided to put the bait there.17

gabanti309 (17.20): well that's the proof then, isnt it? that you took the bait.
gabanti309 (17.20): i just wanted you and him to make up and i knew i'd lose you in the process.
gabanti309 (17.20): i didn't want to be your puppet anymore.18

lickkmycobrah (17.21): then why are you so angry at me?19

gabanti309 (17.21): i didn't know how much it would hurt.20

lickkmycobrah (17.22): i care about him. he's, um21

gabanti309 (17.22): precious22

lickkmycobrah (17.23): ...yes.
lickkmycobrah (17.23): i don't understand you.
lickkmycobrah (17.23): you understand me, but yet you don't know
me at all.
lickkmycobrah (17.23): i suppose you even gave him advice on how to house-train me.23

gabanti309 (17.23): i told him to give you rules.24

lickkmycobrah (17.24): he doesn't need to.
lickkmycobrah (17.24): it would hurt too much to hurt him.
lickkmycobrah (17.24): even if i didnt like him. hurting him is like... he has this way of just putting his emotions on everyone else and...
lickkmycobrah (17.25): i don't know. i love that about him, though.25

gabanti309 (17.25): what do you love about me?26

lickkmycobrah (17.26): i don't know.27

gabanti309 (17.26): do you love anything about me? i swear that's the only time i've heard you use the term love about someone.
gabanti309 (17.26): do you love just that or do you love him in general?28

lickkmycobrah (17.34): what kind of a question is that?29

gabanti309 (17.34): i'm asking if you're in love with him.30

lickkmycobrah (17.58): i
lickkmycobrah (18.01): nevermind.31

lickkmycobrah signed off at 18.01. 32

~**~33

lickkmycobrah signed on at 19.38.34

lickkmycobrah (19.39): yes35

gabanti309 (19.40): ?36

lickkmycobrah (19.44): i am in love.37

gabanti309 (19.44): i'm happy for you, baby.38

lickkmycobrah (19.46): really? as in if i ever married him you'd be my best man kind of happy, and you wouldn't hate me for all the stupid shit i put you through only to run off with a guy who has an apple bottom and you'd like forgive me and stuff?39

gabanti309 (19.46): *laughter*. i love your analogies, or metaphors whatever they are.
gabanti309 (19.47): i already forgave you.
gabanti309 (19.47): i don't hate you. im just angry.
gabanti309 (19.47): love him properly?40

lickkmycobrah (19.48): i'll try.41

gabanti309 (19.48): you don't need to try. love is easy, remember?42

lickkmycobrah (19.50): when did you become the grown up, boy?43

gabanti309 (19.50): i have no idea. stop talking to me, asshole, go talk to your boyfriend.44

lickkmycobrah (19.51): he's not my boyfriend45

gabanti309 (19.51): *raised eyebrows*.46

lickkmycobrah (19.52): fuck you, kid.47

gabanti309 (19.52): cradlesnatcher.48

lickkmycobrah (19.52): goodnight daaarling.49

gabanti309 (19.53): goodnight (:50

lickkmycobrah signed off at 19.54.