WelcomeTo My Life (a many part storywrite)

*alarm clock ringing*1

"God damn it all!" i said as i pulled myself out of bed to turn of the infernal racket of christian coral music perverting the silence of my lair. i pull on my bathrobe and head to the shower.2

"how can you see into my eyes....." i sing passionately as the warm water strikes my skin in an effort to wipe away the germs from the sleepless night.3

"i need to get back to bed" the water at this point so hot i could almost fall asleep in the shower. the warmth making me reminisce of my covers. i could have fallen asleep right there.4

i finally end my twenty minute shower,still just as tired, but now wet. i drudge out of the shower and stand in front of the mirror, which was too fogged up for me to see myself. i prefer it that way.5

"I'm going under....drowning you" keeps repeating itself over in my mind. I finally wipe down the mirror and attempt to brush my hair the way i want it to be, it never works out. but that day it was OK. I pull out my black nail polish and put it on. Draw a pentacle on my palm, and go back to my room to get dressed.6

"Robert, can you please dry yourself before you come to the room. there's water everywhere!" my brother gave me an evil look. 7

"fine. just please don't piss me off today. i know I'm going to have a bad day." he responds.8

"welcome to my life." 9

"well maybe it wouldn't be that way if you dressed in bright colors and had a better out look on life." he states attempting to be therapeutic.10

"bite me" is all i have to say.  i put on my black jeans, and sit down to line the seams with safety pins. i poke the skin a couple times just pull me through the next ten minutes. i pull my evanescence shirt over my head and put my ripped button down shirt on over that. then come the gauntlets and my thumb ring. 11

"why do you dress that way?" my retarded brother asks. 12

"gee, Robert, i wonder." is all i have to say.13

"you know, this family would be happier if you weren't dragging us down." he replies to me.14

"wow, i feel so much better now Robert. thanks for the inspirational talk, but we have to go if we don't want to miss the bus."15

"i wish i had a different brother. you make our family look so bad."16

"god Robert, the love from you is just pouring out today. whats on the agenda, your saintly hood?" i ask sarcastically.17

"well,for one thing, I'll be staying away from you! I've got work to go do today, and i don't need you bothering me."18

" yes, Jesus."19

*on the bus*20

"f-u-c-k it, i see you in me, f-u-c-k it, I'll heal you in me..."Shaun Morgan screams on my Walkman. i keep drifting off. then my friend Katie gets on the bus.21

Shes dressed in a black shirt with black nails, two gauntlets, a cigarette in her mouth, and her hair black as night, drifting down behind her head. her black eye shadow and silver eye lash earring glinting in the dull sun. the words, "bunny you stupid heteros" written in red on her shirt. her black jeans also have the safety pins lining the seams. we are very alike.22

"hello dumb bunny!" she screams at me.23

"bunny" i say back. we both smile at each other, hug, and engage in fun conversation while smoking some good cigarettes.24

"whats going on?" i say as the bus comes to an uneventful stop.25

"we're at school bunny brains." Katie says to me. i chuckle and hop of the bus. we head to the alley behind the school to find my friends Kelly, Scott, Liz, Courtney, Brian, and Sarah. they're all smoking and drinking some beer. i open a can and light another cigarette.26

"i love the mornings." i say between drags. my friends laugh and we head inside for class.27

still smelling highly of cigarettes and beer, i head into first period. my teacher looks at me pleasantly and screams:28

"happy Monday! Everybody sit down so we can learn some Algebra! won't that be fun!?"29

"o i can't wait Satan!" i scream. i got a detention and sent to the office.30

"well it's better than learning Algebra." i say to myself as i leave the room. my brother just watching me leave in disgust. My friend Megan laughing hysterically.31

at the office i find my friend Scott and Kelly having been sent there for also disturbing class. we meet there everyday. i sit next to Scott, my boyfriend, kiss his cheek, and whisper some naughty words in his ear, which makes him giggle. he's so cute. 32

my friends Kelly and Scott both dress like me. All my friends dress "Gothic" like. i love my friends. 33

*to be continued*34