slowly dulling to a blur1
i feel myself fade a way under you eyes2
never perfect yet i strive3
to see a smile4
an approval never directed at me but5
still6
I want it so badly7
that i put up with 8
your abusing words9
and hating fists10
i know that i can do better11
i know that we can be happy12
it's my fault and I know it13
please don't go14
my begging and pleading always works15
whether i please you for once16
or you see the advantage17
in staying18
at least one more19
night20
i don't find pleasure in your touch anymore21
the pierceing signals that my wilted flower22
send to my brain says 23
rape24
it says to stop25
it says that this is not the man i love26
it says that the baby is never coming back27
but i ignore it28
i have to29
i cannot live without30
seeing our child's face in you31
i need you32
or at least 33
i think34
i 35
do
Author notes
No this is not from personal experience. If you don't believe me read "Bitter Ex Boyfriend" trust me, I'm not so out of my mind that I would fall for that crap.
But I know that some women out there do. And in honor of my current depressed mood, I want to comfort you laidies. Trust me, he doesn't love you. He doesn't know what love is, if he would dare tear down a beautiful queen as yourself. No matter what you believe, you CANNOT CHANGE HIM!
YOu have to let him go an live for yourself. Maybe there's the baggage of your "first" or a misscarrige, or young child. That is not a good situation. YOu've got to go. No man, no. No ONE is important enough for you to endager yourself i anyway. IF they mistreat you then that is not a healthy situation, and you must get out.
Now that I've done my public service annoucement I must go to sleep.
Good night my lovelies!
Rae'vn 
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Completely agree to this. I can't personally understand abusive relationships but that might be cause I have the patience of a Husky on meth. x__x Nowadays people do a bit too much for the sake of "supposed" love...
Good job on this. Lovely poem. XD Brilliant ending.
- HT
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Good write, it flowed pretty well, and for not being a personal experience, you brought out the feeling of it very well, and one would definetly believe it was an experience. Great job
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Well...
I almost assumed this was from personal experience, because most poems are from the authors real life, but then I read your author notes, so my initial thought was totally wrong. I think it's great that you talk about this serious situation; most woman feel they cannot live without that person they love, especially if they're tied to that person from some sort of traumatic experience or just there because they have no one else...no where elese to go. This reminded me of emotional, psychological and physical abuse...someone who doesn't truly appreciate or love you for who you are.
Thanks for the great message!
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Very sad, very well written. Good job
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sadly, I can relate with the abusive relationship and loss of child in this. I know all too well these words. couple small things I caught:
i feel myself fade a way under you eyes
you should be your (probably just a typo )
and maybe you did it purposely, if so- sorry, but your i's should be capitalized. you did that on purpose for the piece, though, that's okay.
Overall, powerful and emotional poem here. Good work. Sends out a strong message!! thanks for writing it!
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