What the Fuck? Vegitarians and Aliens [Part 1.]

I was a normal kid once. Just once. Never again will I look bad and see myself as normal. I used to watch cartoons with my little brother on Saturdays, even though im 3 years older than him. I would roller blade down the hill that I live at the top off and attempt to blade back up it. I collected things. I was obsessed with killing barbies. Mac-n-cheese was the ultimate meal. I would have considered myself normal. Back them, I didn't know what kind of blood was pumping through my veins. I didn't know I was half dead. I didn't know I was a phenomenon.1

I was born and raised in a little town in Michigan called Fayette. I had to be the most boring place in the world. My mom was a social worker, and my dad was a construction worker. And I, their middle-class-nothing-special daughter. Then there was my brother, the most popular kid in his grade. Man, I hated my life. Mom and Dad both worked the night shift. Mom got home at 9, and dad at midnight. My brother usually went to a friend's house. I had the whole day to myself. Mom trusted me, so she let me stay alone without contacting anyone to look after me and made sure I didn't do the stuff that most 17 year olds do. Of course I did. I'm just good at hiding things. I did drugs, I drank, I've thrown parties and people have had sex in our house. One thing I never did was lose my virginity. I'm thankful for that.2

It all happened really fast that Friday in October. I was arriving home from school and dad's truck was in the driveway. I got excited and ran into the house. When I flew in from the front door, I heard sobbing. I stopped dead in my tracks. I then preceded to tip toe to find the source of the noise. I walked into my parent's room and saw dad laying downon the bed, crying and holding one of my mother's favorite quilts.3

"Daddy?"4

"Go away!"5

"what happened to mom?"6

"I SAID GO AWAY!"7

"dad, you're scaring me…"8

He sobbed hard for a while.9

"I'm sorry hunny. Come here."10

I walked towards him.11

"Your mom… well… Got into an accident today hunny. She's dead…"12

That's the day I snapped.13

It was three days after mom's funeral. Dad's drinking a lot. Sometimes he'll let me drink with him because its no fun to drink alone. I would sadly sip at some vodka, and watch my dad drink his life away. He turned into an alcoholic- a substance controlled vegetable. I couldn't see the color in the world anymore. It was all in greyscale.14

I began to be mostly in greyscale myself. I wore all black, welcomed death, and wore spikes. I have a heaviness in my heart that could enable me to sporadically start crying. People would call me goth, or demented. I just told them that I'm showing my emotions on the outside. Wouldn't you feel like 'Black' if you had a dead mother, and a vegetable for a father? Yeah. Then I punched the kid and got expelled. WooHoo.15

That's how I landed myself in the Penn State. I was forced to move in with my weird and eccentric Aunt Heilda. She was a nutcake, I promise you this. She thought she could do Magic. I though she belonged to a mental institution. At times, I'd want to stick a note to her back that says, "Dear mental institution, here is the psycho that you lost 32 years ago at birth. P.s. - She eats dirt and howls at the moon. "16

So then i re-started my life. I kept my black-mysterious look though. Aunt Heilda was a Vegan so it was up to me to fend for myself and try to find meat to eat. She bought me my own little insta-stove thing to put in my room so i could make my own hamburgers. I was a hamburger feind. I had to warn her when i was going to make them because if she smelled it, she'd vomit. I think its funny, so at times i cook it and not tell her. I think her hatred of food is all psychological. Animals are made to be eaten!17

My new school was pure hell. I didn't fit in. Everyone was so damn happy. Like no one had ever lost a person they loved. Ugh, if only they knew my pain. They'd suffocate in it. Also, when the principle asked me who i was living with and when i answered "aunt helida" he gave me a weird look then looked me up and down. Then he'd say something weird like, "well you look normal enough." I don't think I've ever wanted to punch someone so hard in my life. Instead of engaging in delightful conversation, i just gave him a stare like i was a retard and make it look like i didn;t know what the hell he was talking about. He just nodded at me and continued his way doing whatever the hell it was he was doing. 18

I headed toward my locker, giving every smiling face i saw an evil glare. Within three feet, i felt like i had used up all my evil glares. Why on earth is everyone here so freaking happy? I don't get it! Didn't anyone get dumped? Doesn't someones cat get ran over by a car? Are there never school fights or that girl or guy you'd love to have but know you'll never get? Jesus christ, i feel like i've landed on a whole other planet. I'm the only human here. These people are martins. I bet they paint themselves skin color and are really green underneath.19

I barely made it through my classes. It was horrible. The teachers wanted me to stand and tell the class about myself. Not only did i not stand, i said, "Uh, hell no." The teacher just proceeded to stare at me with a huge ass grin spread across her face. I wanted to punch that damn smile off of her face. This was horrible. She shrugged and said, "well class, looks like we got one that has a problem opening up. Lets let her be for a while." That was the end of that. 20

The bell rang at the end of the day and i was out of that building before anyone else. I walked down the sidewalk, my hands shoved in my pockets and my headphones blaring. Music was my only escape. Alexi take me away! I was listening to my favorite band, Children of Bodom, and Alexi is their guitarist. God, it feels like he's playing my heart strings instead of guitar strings. He's a rock god. 21

I looked up for some reason, and saw people carrying boxes into a small grey building. I got up closer and saw the building had a sign hanging in the window. I got close enough to read it.22

'Hocus Pocus, a store for everything Occult!23

~books, movies, candles, incense, spell kits and MORE!~24

Grand opening in a week!'25

This shop grabbed my attention. I walked up to one of the guys carrying in a box. I tapped her on the shoulder and smiled one of my award winning fake smiles. "Hi! Are you the store owner?"26

The person turned around and flashed me a brilliant smile. It turned out this guy was actually a really pretty girl! I felt like a total asshole, but didn't let my smile falter. She nodded. "Yeah, how can i help you?"27

"well, i was wondering if i could get a job here helping out and stuff. Hell i'll start right now!" i let out a small laugh and waited for her response.28

She thought for a minute, but then shrugged and nodded. "You're hired." she gave me a soft smile. "You can start now actually. Want to grab a box and follow me with it?"29

I nodded and ran to the truck. I picked up a box and followed close behind her. When we walked into the soon-to-be shop, i heard a crunching noise. I looked down and realized there was salt all over the place, and thick around the parameter. This also made me more curious, but i didn't say anything. The walls were painted black and purple, and there were silver beaded curtains hanging randomly around. I could hear cradle of filth playing somewhere in the background, and it seemed as if we were following the music. We entered the storage room, and i spotted the stereo. It was now pumping out 'Temptation' and an ACTUAL smile spread across my face. I think i've found heaven.