My sad poem i guess

Hearing your name hurts me
The sound of your voice makes me tremble
Being around you makes me dizzy
Seeing you and her touch,hurts alot,seeing you kiss her
Watching how you wrap your arms around her
All of this makes me feeling like puking, makes me wanna scream
I was that girl once the one you were always holding
A new girl replaced me I knew this would happen eventually
I can't deny that i love you now, I know i love you
Those forgiving words don't help anymore
Talking to people, hurting myself, nothing is fixing this pain
I'm crying myself to sleep every night because of you ,feeling empty
Crying every time i have the chance
All because of you just thinking about you makes me sick
I don't know what to say I don't know what to do
I don't know how to stop the crying,the pain, the emptiness
This has to go away before i tare myself apart
Sitting thinking to myself maybe its time to leave this world
I'm no longer needed, never was even
The worst part of this is the girl your with was my best friend
Always having to hear your name,how you kiss her,how you touch her
It makes me cry on the inside silently everyt time
Finally i caved in, leaving this place for awhile at least
When i woke up there you were sitting there crying
I didn't want to be here i should be dead, why are you even here
You came and stoked my cheek I flinched and moved away
This moment here hurts me so bad, having you touch me
You whisper that your sorry, i barely heard through your tears
That's when she walked in, i started crying even more
I mouthed to you how could you
Waking up in the place i wanted to leave
Being hurt even more than before
This wasn't my happy ending a planned
What now..how can i live with seeing him everyday
When i got hurt way more