Bitter Realization

I've come to a conclusion.1

Your not worth my time2

Yet I can't seem to let you go.3

No I'm not in love with you4

It's this familiarity I've grown accustom to5

And I can't seem to shake off6

You've isolated me from everyone7

Changing me8

Molding me into what you think I should become9

Everything is about you10

And I've grown tiresome of it11

I'm afraid if I do get the courage to leave you12

You will have others turn their backs on me13

I don't want to be alone again14

I don't want to becoma the social pariah in our group15

Even though your never there16

Word spreads quickly17

Friends become enemies18

I can't go through that again19

The stability that I've reinstated into my life20

Seems to be an illusion that you've created for me21

You make me feel inferior and alone22

Your presence is sometimes a relief23

But other times it's an annoyance24

I don't like to feel as though I'm your doormat25

I'm not your doll26

I don't like to be toyed with27

It's come to a point where I have to make a decision28

You say I'm your friend29

But it feels as if though your using me30

So that you won't to be alone31

So that you can load all of your problems onto me32

Not anymore33

If you want a pet34

Then look for someone else35

Because I've enough36

You say I'm a bitch towards you37

But your an asshole towards me38

I don't like to a bitch39

But you've turned me into one40

I've changed for the worst not the better41

And I don't like it42

If you were a true friend43

You wouldn't be so manipulative44

So controlling45

And abusive towards me46

You make me seem like I have anger management problems47

And I take them out on you48

In reality I'm a nice person49

But when your around it's hard to speak out50

If your the one silencing me51

I maybe older than you52

I may seem more inexperienced than you53

But compared to you54

I'm truly a nice person55

Even if people don't see it56

I know I am57

And you can't take that away from me.