Shadow

Maybe,1

Just maybe,2

If I die,3

Then all this pain4

Will evaporate.5

No one will miss me.6

I know they won't.7

Because I'm a nobody,8

Just a little shadow,9

So insignificant,10

But always disappears eventually.11

Maybe this is my dawn,12

The prelude to the day.13

When the light comes,14

I will disappear,15

And no one will miss me.16

Just like a shadow,17

Thriving in the dark,18

But always a sign of despair.19

When I am gone,20

I am sure that if they do notice I am gone,21

They will rejoice that I am gone,22

That the light has come.23

I will watch from the spirit world24

The way that people walk by my seat,25

My locker,26

My house,27

My room,28

And don't even notice that something's missing.29

And when I do leave,30

Soon for sure,31

The world will be joyous.32

Yes,33

I do not belong in this world.34

I am just black silhouette in the dark,35

The darkness people ignore36

And despise.37

I am empty,38

Void,39

Unimportant,40

And useless.41

My friends now pass by me42

Without even noticing I'm there.43

I never get cards on 44

Valentine's,45

Christmas,46

Or my birthday.47

Those who do notice me48

Hate me49

With their entire souls.50

Why should I cloud these people's hearts?51

Why should someone as unimportant as me52

Be allowed to take up precious space on this planet,53

Space that could be meant for another,54

More entire person.55

Someone who has meaning,56

A soul,57

And a heart.58

Someone who is not empty59

Like me.60

A person,61

Not a shadow.62

So soon,63

Very soon,64

I will meet the daylight65

And disappear.66

Evaporate.67

Because that is my destiny.68

Everyone is waiting for me to 69

Disappear.70

Evaporate.71

Because I am a shadow.72

Just a shadow,73

Nothing else.74

I am nothing,75

I am empty.76

I am depressing,77

they say.78

Some say,79

"God doesn't make mistakes."80

"God doesn't make garbage."81

The people who say that82

Have never met me.83

What is a shadow?84

A shadow is a mistake,85

Something made by Satan,86

And all the other lords of darkness.87

Therefore, I kiss the Earth goodbye,88

And I pull the trigger,89

Disappearing,90

Just like a shadow meet the light.91

And I leave,92

A shadow evaporating.93

I am nothing but a shadow.94

Just a shadow.95

Nothing more,96

Nothing less.97

A shadow...