Better Than Drugs

Ugh.. Again. Why do i do it? 1

I know what happens, but I do it again.2

What did i do this time?3

Crap, where am i?4

Oh why do i go to these parties when i am trying to stop.5

I guess i better get up.6

I don't know why I do it, but I go to these parties where there are drugs. I know but i still go. I guess it wouldn't be so bad if i wasn't addicted to being high. It didn't matter what got me there i just needed the feeling.7

I had tried for months to quit. Fill my time with useless, pointless, things so i don't do drugs. I had even been doing pretty well, but no I had to come to this stupid party. 8

I really needed to find something, anything to fill my time with something better. I had tried running, reading, and other pointless things. They had been great the first time but i needed more. 9

I had this friend at school, the one who started me on the drugs. Now he was off of them, he was now going to church and wanting me to go with him.10

I didn't want to be stuck in a room with a bunch of goody two shoes judging me. I went once when i was younger and I hated it I couldn't wait to get out of there.11

The one thing that i hadn't done yet was free fall. I didn't care if it was sky diving, bungey jumping, parasailing, or just jumping. I had always wanted to do it but i never knew a place around me that did that.12

Then this new place came in. It was a skydiving place. I wanted to get in to go skydiving, but they didn't let people in by themselves. THey only let groups in. 13

IT just turned out that my friends youth group was going. Why did that have to happen to me. The only way i could do the one thing i really wanted to do, was be with the people i really didn't want to be with.14

I decieded to go. And guess what, it was awesome. The skydiving was ok. Not what i expected it to be but it was ok. The youth group was amazing. They weren't judgemental or anything. They were really close and let me in to their circle right away. Not that i wanted to be in the circle. 15

The one thing that hit me the most was the prayer. They did a popcorn prayer, anyone could say what they wanted if they wanted.16

Almost everyone had an amazing faith. THey all seemed really close to God. 17

I wanted that too. I decieded to go to more youth group events. And you know what, I was finding a great way to spend my time. Not getting high on drugs, but on jesus and faith and companionship. It felt great. He was better than drugs. I could have this high whenever and wherever i wanted it.