All For Love

I tightly grasp my hands around your throat while staring into your slowly closing eyes. Every single gasp of breath you let out brings a small amount of joy to my ever blackening heart. I know you can not breathe and you know that I will not try to let you breathe. I feel your heart race slowing as your eyes close a bit more. My hands start to apply more pressure to your frail and fragile neck. Your pale liquid paper white skin slowly turns a deep blue. The veins in your eyes start to rupture one by one. The gorgeous hazel eyes you once had are now shaded with blood and dilated pupils. The last breath in your body is releasing itself now with a single word, “Why?” Your body goes limp in my hands and an evil almost Satan like grin appears across my face. A tear falls down your face, the salty drop of pain is mixed with a hint of blood. The clear liquid mixed with red makes me realize what I have done. I look at your body lying there. It is so cold and fragile. Your last word comes into my mind, “Why?” I laugh to myself when I think of this. How could you ask such a stupid question. It was because I loved you Angel. What was I supposed to do when you looked me in the face and told me you didn’t love me. Do you know how that made me feel? No! Because you didn’t care. I spent my entire life waiting for you. I have lost my friends and my family have disowned me because of you but that doesn’t matter now does it Angel. In a short period of time we will be together forever anyway. Your world has already ended and mine will shortly but first my love I must do something. I place my hand on your heart and say these words “My heart was always yours but now I will finally have your heart for myself,” I remove my hand a place it into my pocket when I remove it there is a small object ‘click’ a blade appears, serrated and clean. “Don’t worry Angel this will not hurt at all I swear,” I place the blade at the top of your neglige and slowly cut it. Your chest is revealed in full to me although it doesn’t matter anymore. It isn’t anything I haven’t seen before. I place the blade of the knife point down right in the middle of your breastbone. I then place the palm of my hand on the end of the knife. I raise my hand and with one simple yet hard downward thrust ‘crack!’ your chest cavity collapses. I slowly grind the knife through your ribs breaking them slowly and making sure not to disfigure you. I see it now, your heart is lying there pulse less. It is so beautiful, more beautiful than I could have ever imagined and to think it is mine now. A grin like that of an innocent child opening his presents on Christmas morning comes across my face. I move my hands inside of your opened chest and place my hands around your heart. I start to pull and one by one the valves came loose and your heart is in my hands. I embrace this priceless treasure for what seems like hours but I know it was merely minutes. I slowly place my new found trophy on the night stand beside your bed ‘bang’ I slam my knife straight through the middle of it. “See what you made me feel like! Everyday you told me you hated me felt like a dagger was piercing the very heart of me!  Now you know how it feels you stupid bitch!” Tears start to feel my eyes and slowly start running down my blood stained face. “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry, please forgive me for my anger I didn’t mean to yell at you I swear. Shhh shhh don’t cry I will make it all better, See?” I pull a ring from my pocket and place it gently on her finger. “God I love you so much!” Finally it is time for us to be together. I walk outside to my car and I can see blue and red flashing lights. I reach into my car and pull from within a .38 special revolver, I then run back inside and into your room lay down beside you place the muzzle of the gun to my temple and with my final words “I love you Angel,” I pull the trigger ‘boom’. 1