Losing Trust

I felt so lost when I saw his eyes meet mine on the beach.1

And yet it felt so right. I wanted to run to him and spread 2

my feelings to him. I knew, as a girl, that you can't always3

say what you feel. I wish it came so easy!4

And so I hugged him tightly. When I let go, I fell right5

to my knees. He rushed to me of course, and I let him stare.6

My eyes clouded up and I looked right at him. He knew something7

was wrong, but the tears started to stream down my face.8

He then went to his knees and held me in his arms. He asked softly9

what was the matter. I stayed silent for a few and dried my tears.10

"I'm sorry." I said softly. It was all I could say. He lifted my 11

head up and slowly kissed me softly. When I opened my eyes he was12

smiling right at me. "There is nothing to be sorry for."13

I shook my head. "But there is! I blamed you for kissing that girl14

and..." My eyes were once again clouded, but this time clouded with15

not only tears but guilt. I too had a secret to share. "Look, forgive 16

me. I don't care that you kissed her. I've done worse. David, the 17

guy on the soccer team... I got drunk okay? We fooled around and..."18

I looked right at him and he turned his head quickly. He knew what was coming. He didn't want to talk to me. I didn't want to talk to me either.19

"It's not what you think, we didn't do it. Nothing far serious. 20

We kinda just made-out and got close to it, until his parents 21

ruined the party." His eyes swelled up. They didn't crash into tears,22

instead they got deep with harsh anger. "So you're saying that 23

you could have had sex with him? Oh, and you got... what was the24

excuse? Oh yeah... DRUNK! What were you thinking Lizzie? I am so25

very ashamed of you! Yes that is so FAR worse that one kiss.26

You know what? I never told you, I enjoyed that sweet blissful kiss!27

A look of shock and sadness crossed my eyes. "Why would you say28

such an awful thing?" I said quietly. I ran off down the beach.29

I tripped over a rock, but I didn't move. Instead he ran to me30

grabbed me. He turned me towards him and said, "We need to trust31

each other Liz. We have to promise each other nothing like this32

happens again. Or else or relationship will go even deeper down the hole."33

When he said EVEN DEEPER, I realized our relationship wasn't going34

to last much longer. Our trust in each other burst because of our35

very foolish mistakes. I just hit the iceberg even harder when I 36

broke the news. "Tell me Lizzie, how long ago was this? And has 37

anything else happened between you two?" I looked right at him and38

said, "Only last weekend, and no, nothing else" He kissed me lightly39

and I stood up. We walked away knowing it was close to the end.40