My First Scrap to You

My mind was in a cognitive state.I wanted to get rid of this bemusement.The "should I" or "should I not question" was tampering my mind in a harmful manner.1

Tee as I fondly called her was my best friend cum sister cum my worst critic.The real name her parents had given her was Tina Sara Abraham.2

Though Tina was a really sweet and short name,I preferred to call her "Tee" maybe because it was effortless for my tongue.3

I frantically searched for her number in my phone book and dialled it with trembling hands. I tend to get bouts of anxiety tremors when I am scared or confused and this was indeed one hell of a mystery. Her phone kept buzzing continuously but guess she was very busy as she wasn't bothered to pick up the call. After making 8 or 9 calls I gave up on my patience and threw the phone on my bed in dismay.4

I wanted to speak to Roshan but will my madness be appreciated by him. I really didn't know.I wanted to discuss the issue with Tee and give my distressed mind all the composure it deserved.5

Suddenly my phone rang. I ran towards the phone in frenzy as I was expecting Tina's call. I mean only if she would have got rid of her meddle with work.6

"It's me,you had called?" Tina enquired7

"Yup, I wanted to meet you urgently" I replied8

"What happened? I hope all is well" She asked9

"It's all about Roshan" I said10

"Ahh.Your prince charming" She said and laughed out loud11

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I wondered as to why she had to make that statement. I didn't even share a word with her about the discovery of Roshan on Orkut.She knew about Roshan but I had given her an imprecise and hazy description of him.13

Ironically he didn't even know the existence of a creature called "Riya" on the globe.Everything was strange and shadowy. Oh God!What was I trying to do? I didn't know.14

"Alright,let's meet in CCD,C.P" She suggested15

"Thanks, I am indebted to you" I replied in a thankful tone16

"Oh. You and you thankfulness,grow up girl" She replied in an irritated tone17

I always tried to be thankful to people even to my friends especially when they were kind and tolerant towards me. Let me tell you,there are only a few people in this world who have actually been able to read the mystery in me and Tee was one such person. There was this "unseen and undefined sisterly bond" between us.18

I was comfortably seated in one of the corners of the Cafe Coffee Day and was looking at the dim lights and the mad noisy crowd that had assembled there that evening. Tee was late as usual considering her busy schedule pertaining to her work. I was making some vague patterns in my mind and all I thought was about Roshan and his charming face and yes of course,the lovely eyes.19

Suddenly I saw a girl dressed in pink T-shirt and blue denims walking hurriedly towards me. She was apologetic for her late arrival and comfortably positioned herself in the chair opposite to me.20

" Yup,tell me babe?" Tina enquired21

"Let's order something" I said22

"Cold coffee with icecream would be fine,our usual stuff" She confirmed23

"Yup,ok." I replied24

Tina was considerate enough to go and place the order.She returned with a tray with two tall glasses of cold coffee laden with ice cream.25

"Here it is" She said placing the tray on the table26

I thanked her and said" I wanted to talk about Roshan"27

I didn't have the patience to wait anymore,I had to tell her all that was muddling up my mind.28

"Roshan?"
She shouted out that name with a startled expression on her face as if the air had been knocked out of her lungs.29

"Yes,Roshan.I have mentioned about him earlier as well.My class 9th crush cum-love cum-what not" She said30

"What do you mean?" She enquired31

I discovered him on Orkut recently.Should I talk to him again? I know he doesn't even realize my existence in this world"
I asked in a very excited tone32

"Alright,then make him realize about your existence" Tina said33

I am scared Tee.What if he never wants to be friends with me? And what if I fall in love with him? What will I do?" I spoke in a confused deliberated tone34

You are one of a kind. You can think about the two sides of the coin at the same time.Either he will start liking you or he will never like you. Either one of the two will happen" She replied35

" I like him too much,babe" I said36

"I know.Alright,then be confident that he will like you too. And of course, why can't you think positive babe? You are a girl any man dreams to make his wife" She said positively37

Now that was a really generous and intense statement she had made.I wondered why she ever said that.38

"I think I need confidence.Will go to church today and then scrap him" I replied39

" Great. And think positive. He will surely like you" She said with a tinge of positivity in her words40

Somehow the conversation with Tee had triggered my mind to think positively and all I could think was about Roshan and my first scrap to him.I was planning the contents of the scrap in my mind.41

Tina wanted to drop me back home but I turned down the luxury ride of her car and boarded a bus. I reached the gates of Sacred Heart Cathedral. I prayed humbly to Lord Jesus and seeked the intercession of Mother Mary. My confidence was increased by manifolds after my sojourn to the church.42

I sat in front of my computer. I made the sign of the cross three times and then logged in to my Orkut account.I wanted God to help me out this time.I was getting an unsettling feeling in my stomach,thanks to all the nervousness.I reached your profile and opened your scrapbook.I prayed humbly that you read my scrap as soon as you can and give me an affirmative and positive reply.And I started typing.43

(Scrap is an offline message that can be sent to any member of the social networking site "Orkut")44

"Hi Roshan.Are you the same Roshan Mathews Panicker whose father was in the Indian Army.This is Riya.Riya Abraham from Delhi.I go to St.Mary's Orthodox Cathedral,Safdarjung Development Area.We had attended the Bible school together sometime ago I mean nine years ago.I hope you remember me? Waiting for a reply..."45

SOME NAMES IN THIS POST HAVE BEEN CHANGED TO PROTECT THE IDENTITY OF THE CHARACTERS.