Bruises: Part 5

"Lung of love - leaves me breathless1

Tongue of fool - lap me in enmity2

Four walled secret lies among the hessian3

And a flicker of the future..."4

She's been lacking spark. No love song, no googly eyes, no lovey dovey goo. What's happened to her? All this time the wind blew the same way, picked up the same leaves time after time... A summery day? What? Unheard of. Getting straight down to business is not her thing. Procrastination and cover up are what she thrives off of. Taking time down the road of bliss...5

"Love underwhelms you6

No box of chocolates7

Whichever way you fall8

And if i tell you9

Lover alone without love10

What will happen..."11

Sometimes she finds it's much easier to breakdown internally. Trashing and putting on a display for everyone to see isn't worth the time. She internally batters herself for things she can't even describe. Invisible foes -- invisible defeat. If she told you she was happy, she would cry. If she told you she was cheerful, she would lie. This girl puts on a show. She convinces herself its not the end of the world when she can see it edging closer.12

"so let go, jump in13

oh well, whatcha waiting for14

it's alright15

'cause there's beauty in the breakdown16

so let go, just get in17

oh, it's so amazing here..."18

Not that the sun never shines and her world is a dark puddle of glum everywhere you look. The sun plays games. Hide and Seek, Cat and Mouse, Fishy Fishy Cross My Ocean. Tricky... hard to catch. Who knew heat was so flammable?