My Horrible Life: Journal Entries

My Horrible Life: Journal Entry 11

September 7, 20072

Dear Journal,3

I'm going to tell you about how my life was ruined. This is it. Well, my story starts off when my mom got divorced. I was two then and was extremely heartbroken. I couldn't believe it. When you're two you think that everything is perfect and your parents are the best. I thought my parents were going to be together forever. It took me thirteen years to get over it. That means that I am fifteen and just started high school. My mom just decided to get married to some loser. I mean he's just not like my father. My father was awesome and well,... this guy is just not. I was getting used to being with just my mom and then she had to go and get married. I mean, WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER!!!! She never asked me on what I thought of this guy. I had to move into his house. His house is so UGLY!!! I mean the inside of it is really small. The furniture doesn't match with the color of the walls. He even has two dogs. They're both Pomeranians and one is a male and the other is a female. To add to the chaos, he has four boys. I can't handle all of this. I honestly can't complain because this is not as bad as my school is. I mean my school is a living hell. Everyone in my school hates me. I have no friends and my teachers even hate me. The kids in my school act like I have some kind of dangerous disease because they stay away from me and the teachers act like I killed one of their family members because they always yell at me, avoid me and ignore me. I mean, WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!!!! I always thought that I was a good person and that I was a good student and friend, but no one else thinks so but me. I can't handle any of this!4

Signed,5

Christina Daniels6

My Horrible Life: Journal Entry 27

September 8, 20078

Dear Journal,9

I have been thinking, since it is a weekend I should try to understand my school. I mean I must be doing something wrong. I can ask them to help me. Today is Saturday and I feel less suicidal today than yesterday, but I did have one problem today. My mom had to go to work, so her husband had to watch the kids. I decided to just stay in my room, so when he told me to do something for him I said no. I mean I am a teenager. That means that I do not want to work on a Saturday or any day of the weekend. He decided to go to my room and punish me. He is not my father so I told him that he was not the boss of me. He then slapped me across my face. He cannot do that. He is not my parent. I called the police and they said that he was. I hung up immediately. I called my mom and she said he was my father. When she came home she punished me and now I have to stay in my room without t.v. That is so unfair. I still don't deserve any of this. I think instead of kiling myself I will runaway. I would still go to school. but I won't live with that loser and my mom. I do not deserve this kind of treatment.10

Signed,11

Christina Daniels12

My Horrible Life: Journal Entry 313

September 9, 200714

Dear Journal,15

Today is Sunday and I don't want to go to school anymore. I know I said that I felt better yesterday even though there was that incident, but I guess I was just kidding myself. I want to be accepted by these people, but it is just so hard! They won't even listen to me. I think I should either show them how cool I am or not to even bother, just run way. I will see what happens tomorrow and then I will make up my mind. I think I might run away, but I don't know yet. My mom is still oblivious to my feelings. My mom's husband is annoying me and the dogs are going to be parents. The four boys are getting on my nerves. I cannot handle all of this stress. You know what, I'm going to run away. I am not going to take anymore of this stress. I will start making an escape plan, my revenge, pack up, and then I will leave. I am going to do this all tonight because I will not go to school in the morning and I will not hear all of the yelling I get in the morning. I will definitely keep writing about my adventure!16

Signed,17

Christina Daniels18

My Horrible Life: Journal Entry 419

September 9, 200720

Dear Journal,21

I have already decided that because I always leave my window open at night, I will escape through there. I have packed up everything I need and I won't have revenge on anyone. I really wish I didn't have to run away, but if that's what it takes to be happy, I'll do it. I have also decided to decorate my journal page according to what I write about and what I feel like at the moment. My journal entries will become shorter because I have to survive. In order to buy stuff, I will take all of my saved money and also most of my mom's husband's money. I mean, I don't even like him!! I will not leave any note and I will just find a hotel as far away as possible. I know that I am too young to go to a hotel, but I recently received a fake I.D. At the moment it seemed bad, but now I need it and I'm thankful. I really hope this all works out.22

Signed,23

Christina Daniels24

My Horrible Life: Journal Entry 525

September 10, 200726

Dear Journal,27

It is now early in the morning on a Monday. I am in a hotel room. It isn't the best because I didn't have a whole pot of cash. I wish I really didn't have to do this. Is this God's fault? No!! What am I saying? I decided all of this. This isn't God's doing. I think I'm going crazy because I just blamed my decision on God. Let me get back to business, the hotel provides free food for three days if you are staying in a room. I think I'm starting to like flowers again because this place is filled with them. I especially love the yellow ones. I'm getting off topic again,... I obviously don't have the same name as before because the fake I.D. says otherwise. It says my name is Bethany Hamilton. To me, this is a very common name. I have to start thinking about disguise if my family starts looking for me. I brought along some old costume items that I can use for disguise. It includes a wig, some makeup, and different things to add to my clothing. The clothing part because my family could recognize my clothes. I also need to make a plan on what I'm going to do after this three days because I can't waste money on food in a hotel. I will leave after three days and find another hotel. If they don't provide free food, I will buy some from a store. I hope this all works out.28

Signed,29

Christina Daniels30

My Horrible Life: Journal Entry 631

September 11, 200732

Dear Journal,33

Change in plans, I have to leave now. I am all over the news. My family is looking for me. They are getting very close. This life is getting very hard. They are always looking for me, so I'm always hiding. I was shocked when the news people questioned my mom's husband. He said that he misses HIS daughter and that if someone sees me, to bring me back home! What is he talking about? He hit me! He can't miss me. Atleast I know I have no friends that are sad. I just got an idea, if I come back I would be a legend. I don't think the school ever had someone be missing for a long time and come back. I'll give it a week and come back. I will have so many friends, but what if I don't make it back? Wait, I can't think like that. Okay... I will go to this hotel that's about 15 miles away from this one. Also, I put together a disguise. Since I am brunette, I am wearing a blonde wig. I darkened my skin to a close orange as if I went to tanning salon because I once told my mom I would never go to one. I also added a bit of glitter to my least favorite clothes because I HATE glitter. It wouldn't matter on if there was glitter on the clothes I am not going to wear in public as Christina Daniels. I am going in public as Bethany Hamilton, a girl who goes to tanning salons and loves glitter. I really hope this works. 34

Signed,35

Christina Daniels36

My Horrible Life: Journal Entry 737

September 12, 200738

Dear Journal,39

I'm at that hotel 15 miles away. I am really scared right now because while I was leaving, I saw this man staring at me. I did have on a very good disguise, so he couldn't have recognized me from t.v. Why was he looking at me? I hope he wasn't looking at his next victim or something? I am totally going to have nightmares. I'm starting to run out of money. I can't afford going to anymore hotels. I'm going to have to rough it outside. I can't believe I just wrote that. This is going to get really bad and I'm scared for my life. Why is it that t.v. makes running away seem easy? I need to keep telling myself I just have to wait a week. I miss so many things. I need help!!40

Signed,41

Christina Daniels42

My Horrible Life: Journal Entry 843

September 13, 200744

Dear Journal,45

I just woke up and found my family all around me. They told me that they were happy I was alive and why I ran away. I told them everything and then I started to cry. When I stopped, I asked my mom how they found me. They described a man. It matched the description of the one who was staring at me. That was totally freaky. Today I'm going home and back to school. Let's see if I have made some new friends. I really hope I have. I almost forgot to write about what I dreamt of. I kept seeing skulls everywhere. I wonder if this is important. I have realized that this journal is the memory of my first adventure. I will write more tomorrow.46

Signed,47

Christina Daniels48

My Horrible Life: No More Entries49

On the night of September 13, Christina Daniels was murdered. No one had a clue who did it. Her journal was found thrown on the floor covered in blood. The police thought of it as a clue. They read it and found how this girl felt. The journal was a reminder to Christina about her adventure, but to the police it was a clue to who was the murderer. They were able to prove that it was the guy who turned in Christina to her parents. This journal became a widely known book. This journal brought Christina justice and new friends. Friends because the people who were mean to her in school, cried at her funeral. This all happened because Christina had a journal. The journal was buried with her after it was published. People wonder why she was murdered. The answer is that because she was put on the news, murderers went looking for her. One was successful, but he was put in jail because of a journal the girl kept.50