DO NOT READ THIS....IT IS VEARY DEPRESSING....but if you are going to read this....please read it all....

This is how I really feel...1

I feel like I want to die...2

...but cannot find the excuse.3

I never found anyone, male or female, that I ever fell in love with....4

...so I am depresed because of manny pains, that start with that...5

I like the seeing of evildoing because it gives me grand ideas for drawing, and writeing.6

I allways seem to have nightmares, but that is a bliss because I am scared of good dreams for some reasion.7

Yet....with all this..."badness..."....8

I like to be kind to all.9

I like to be one of god's followers.10

I like to be chosen last or not at all.11

I like to read.12

I like to stare someone I like in the face and say I love you,13

if I can find anyone like that.14

I like to sleep.15

but most of all..... 16

yea...17

most of all....18

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I love the way I ACT! 22

Doun't deni' it! 23

We all act all the time, we all have a mask.24

So, to put it bluntly, I am a 18 year old, finishing up 2 more years of school before I "start my life", hopeing that one day...25

a marical will happen, and I can do a grand enventure...live my own story for a change...26

I would not even mind the side role, or even the bad guy, if needed.....27

All I want in life....is something more than where I live: Portland Tennessee....28

All I want in life....is something more than everyday boredom....29

All I want in life.........30

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Is to be happy, me, and not my mask for once....