The 'It' Factor (or some other title... I am not sure)

Preface1

  "Will. Please." my mother breathed, her face was pinched and her eyes were wet from crying, "you're all I have." It pained me to have to see her this way, epecially when it was all my doing. "Will, if I hurt you in any way, you can tell me, I'll do anything for you." She thought it was her fault, that made this that much more troubling for me, my muscles tensed. Her plea was getting more desperate and her expression had moulded into something I couldn't bear to witness. I turned away from her and held my hands in tight fists. She was making this much harder for me than I had anticipated. She couldn't do anthing to change the fact that I had to leave, and she couldn't say anything to erase the horrible truth I'd seen. The truth,
it had been too difficult for me to endure, and I knew it would hurt my mother more than my absense ever could. It was safer for her to stay here unknowing. "How... how long will you be gone?" she blubbered.  I sighed...I couldn't answer that, I couldn't tell her that I was never coming back, she wasn't strong enough, and frankly, neither was I. I just pretended not to hear her question and proceded to say my long rehearsed goodbye
"I love you mom," I said gently, "I wish you only the best." Then, I gripped the frame of the window, exhaled, and through myself out.2

I wished that dying could have been the anitdote to my increasing pain, but I owed it to my mother to keep myself alive. It wasn't like jumping out of a six-story window could have killed me anyway, it was one of the perks... or setbacks, depending on how you looked at it, of being an 'It'. Naturally, about a foot above the ground, I bent my knees to limit the impact. Falling that far may not have had the necessary force needed to end me, but without proper landing, I could still get hurt. At the sudden 'thud' of my feet contacting the ground, I knew it was time to run. I started by channeling all of feelings into the energy I would need to complete the lengthly journey I was beginning. I took a deep, quick breath and... I was gone. 3