Her Lips

Her beauty was undeniable, no matter who you asked, they would all agree she was a beautiful creature. Her enchanting brown eyes I escaped into, the glowing skin that stopped my heart, the defined body I held in my arms - she was perfect, almost. Physically she was gorgeous, but her mind was somewhere else in the depths of coldness. I had a hardhearted, alluring girl and sometimes beauty does not always cut it.1

"So do you want to go out with me?"
I knew I should not have said yes. I simply could not for the reason that she was a girl and I was a girl. Besides, she had a boyfriend, I was in a messy relationship with a boy I believe I was infatuated with, but her voice drew the word yes out of me. 2

I was now the other girl that I promised I would never be. In a way, though, it felt good to be the other girl, to be able to escape into a world I never would have imagined I could be in. Little did I know that the world I willingly stepped into was not filled with all smiles and laughs. 3

She promised me that she would break up with him, but until then we would have an open relationship. After all, I got out of my messy relationship for her. She did, eventually, but she continued to hook up with another boy or another girl. She kissed other girls right in front of me, thinking it was fine. I thought the open part of our relationship ended, but I guess not. 4

But she made everything she did wrong disappear when she kissed me spontaneously. Secrecy was what we went by, nobody knew about us, but somehow she found ways to just kiss me at the playground, the school, anywhere. Her soft lips melting onto mine, opening and closing just at the right moments, then leaving me wanting more of her warm breath on my skin – everything always seemed to be nonexistent except for her arms around my neck and her body in my arms. 5

All good things have an end, though, and our relationship had to have an end. I broke it off with her simply because I could not handle her cheating on me anymore – hypocritical, right? I needed a stable relationship, and such a thing just did not exist in a relationship with her…

Author notes

Sometimes I wonder if this heartbreak was caused by my pain or my selfishness, then I wonder if all of it was worth something, and I tell myself yes, because she added another chapter to my life.

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    well, it's not like she was the most mature of people. I mean, come on, she was a freshman.
    but of course it was worth something.
    you know, after the break up she called me and cried.
    i feel like there's something from a song like, don't push love away you know you do.




    you're not selfish. you have never been selfish. i have never thought that you were selfish. i don't like it. i try and hate it. i cant hate you, even if i tried. i understand. but i don't have to like it even if i do understand.

    i hope you are happy with what you are doing. that's all i want.


  • Taylor Renee
    January 4

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    Brutality? No way, this wasn't bad.

    First, I absolutely adore your author's notes. Very true, and I can relate. Those words are very wise.

    Next, thank you so much. Mucho brownie points for being a prewrite in my contest.

    I really love the feel of this; it hurts. You really got the reader to feel what you wanted. That's great.

    And of course, this is totally relatable.

    You did really well. =)

    Thanks so much for taking the time for my contest, and I wish you the absolute best of luck.

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