Out of Energy

It felt like time was passing me by. Like everyone was leaving me behind. Like I was stuck in the past forever. I was exhausted. Exhausted from trying to live life.1

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I sat in the waiting room outside Dr. Peak’s office while my mom was inside talking to the psychiatrist.3

Probably discussing why I tried to kill myself, I thought.4

The office smelt like lemon air freshener and pills. Lots of pills. Like everything had been dipped into a vat of rubbing alcohol.5

My mom walked out of the office and sat in the seat across from me.6

“Charity? Charity Chestnut?” The assistant called.7

I stood up and walked to the desk slowly.8

"Yes?" I asked.9

“You can go in now,” she said.10

I walked slowly through the doors, closing them behind me. I wasn’t ready to discuss my attempt at suicide. Not now. Maybe not ever.11

Dr. Peak was a small, petite woman. She was probably in her late thirties, early forties. She wore a white pantsuit and black, high-heeled pumps.12

She smiled encouragingly at me and said, “Come in.”13

I walked all the way in and took a seat on the, probably expensive, leather couch across from Dr. Peak.14

“How are you today, Charity?” She asked.15

“Tired,” I replied quietly, and Dr. Peak scribbled something onto her notepad.16

“I’ve already talked to your mother about everything,” she started. “She said you fainted. She also said she found an empty bottle of pills on your dresser, but I want to find out the whole story. Can you tell me what happened?"17

“I had school,” I answered vaguely.18

“And what happened at school?”19

I paused as I figured out what I wanted to say, and Dr. Peak waited patiently for me to continue.20

“I went to Trig. On the way, I heard people talking.”21

“About what?” She asked. “You?”22

I nodded slowly, lethargically.23

“They were making fun of me,” I started. “Of my clothes. My hair. Everything.”24

“Is that why you tried to … kill yourself?”25

“Part of it,” I answered.26

“Do you want to tell me the other reasons?”27

“Work stuff, family things, friend problems, boy problems, getting ready for college. The list goes on,” I responded dully.28

The session went on. She asked questions, and I answered them.29

After forty-five minutes, she left the room for a minute and came back with two bottles in her hands. She sat back down.30

“I want you to take one of each of these pills once a day,” she said, as she handed the bottles to me.31

I examined the labels. Both had names that I couldn’t pronounce. One was for stress. The other for depression.32

When the hour was up, she said good-bye and walked me to the door.33

"See you next week,” she called after me.34

I waved over my shoulder as I walked out of the office doors and towards the elevator. My mom followed me close behind.35

The drive home was silent except for the hum of the car’s engine.36

When I got home, I went up to my room, closing the door behind me.37

I turned my stereo on low, and “Tourniquet”, an Evanescence song, came on. Then, I lay down on my bed and stared at the ceiling.38

If mom hadn't seen me pass out and taken me to the hosiptal, I probably wouldn't be here right now, I thought. I wouldn't have to worry about work, college, boys, or the girls at school. I wouldn't have to worry about trying to live life anymore.39

A knock on my door interrupted my thoughts.40

“Come in,” I called listlessly.41

My mom entered the room with a tray. On the tray was a bowl of her homemade chicken noodle soup. It used to be my favorite thing to eat.42

Also on the tray was a glass of water43

She set it down on my desk.44

“The doctor said that you should eat something with the medicine,” my mom said.45

“Thanks,” I said in response.46

She nodded slightly and stood there for a minute. Then, not knowing what else to do, she left the room.47

I stood up and, on the way to the bathroom, grabbed the pills.48

I swallowed as many of them as I could, pushing them down my throat.49

One last thought passed my mind before I slipped into oblivion.50

Hopefully this is the end.

Author notes

Contest: Wow Me! by vamplover22907
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Contest: Suicide. by easily amused
Favorite Song(right now): "Boy Don't Smoke" by The Filthy Youth

Option 3, and Banana Bugs Eat Five Funky Cars!

I used this quote:

"Feel out of breath
Feel out of time
Stuck in this moment,
That is no longer mine."

And my favorite word in the English language is interminable. My second favorite word is eternity.

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  • Marisalyn13
    May 3

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    Fantabulous!!!

    You did amazing! Sometimes my life is really annoying, but then againn I wouldn't kill myself. I really liked the ending, but I feel bad for the mom. She was trying to help and it made me feel bad. I'm not too emotional but you made me feel bad and actually frown!!! Good Job!

    beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.


  • vamplover22907
    May 2

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    I think that it was good. You are the first to have suicide in here, hmm. I get those feelings at times. But when I do I just sleep, then I wake up back to reality. Either that or write it gets me in a better mood. You rock.

    beginning: 5, language: 5, plot: 5, ending: 5, dialog: 5, characters: 5.


  • easily amused
    April 6
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    :(

    How sad... I LIKE IT!
    great job...


  • Fruitilicious
    March 31

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    This is a great peice of work: even though I dorbt I've ever read anything like this before. Thanks for entering!

    beginning: 3, language: 4, plot: 3, ending: 5, dialog: 4, characters: 4.

  • DeathByChocolate
    March 31

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    Thats really good. This isn't usually my favorite genre of story, nor can I relate to it, but I liked reading this. I like what you did with that quote. It was interesting the whole way through Just out of curiosity, did she die int he end?

    GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!!!!!

    • KelsiEvermore
      March 31
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      Well, if I kept writing the story, she probably would have died. But because of how I cut it off there, it's kind of up to the reader to decide if she died or not.

      Thanks for the comment and the applaus!


  • powerpuffs
    March 30

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    i liked it

    i really like the random wy of suiside(idk how ti spell it ) I also love the end!!!!!!! Thanks for entering!!!!
    Powerpuffs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(Pp)


  • Robin Omallia
    February 13

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    That was really good. I feel like doing what she did often in my life. I could really relate to it. It was very well written.
    Thanks for entering. =)

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