You don't understand, do you?1
You don't understand at all.2
I watch and smile from a distance, until you call me and I snap out of my daydream because you actually want me to be there with you.3
I hate fighting. I really do. But sometimes I can't help myself when you barely blink if I just said I'd just attempted suicide, and with other people you'd be freaking out.4
I listen, don't I? I listen. I try to cheer you up by going onto another subject, but then you think I just don't care. I do care. I care with all my heart.5
My heart aches when I think about fights earlier that day. I cry myself to sleep. It must sound strange coming from me though...Useless little girl I am.6
Pathetic. I'm just a weak, pathetic person who just craves attention, right? That's how you'd describe me. You probably laugh behind my back even though you hug me and tell me you care.7
You don't understand, do you? You don't understand at all...And why would you?
Author notes
Just another of my short writes venting my feelings. 
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Obviously if he is that rude to you, he does not like you like that. And is probably not worth your time.
-Raf-
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I hate hurting people.
Even when it's by accident. It made me feel sick when I heard you talk about suicide. I tried to talk to you for a long time and you were being hurtful and it seemed like all you wanted to do was to make me feel worse and worse. I tried to find out what had happened in the first place that upset you but you wouldn't tell me. You would just say you wanted me to figure it out and things like that. I finally couldn't take any more. I'd hit my stress level and went beyond. I had too much weighing on me and I couldn't deal with it. Changing the subject and pretending that there is nothing wrong to cheer me up doesn't cheer me up. Some people want you to pretend that everything is fine so that you don't upset them. I'm just the opposit. It upsets me to know that something is wrong and that I can't help. I'm sorry that's the way I am. Fighting Always bothers me. I don't like to fight. I try so hard to avoid fighting. I've never once though of you as useless, pathetic, weak or a little girl. I think of you as an energectic, exciting and fun young lady. I also think of you as my friend. I not only would never laugh at you behind your back I would defend you to anyone who dare laugh at you behind your back in front of me. As far as craving attention goes, yes, I think you crave attention. You might even crave it as much as me. Who doesn't crave attention. I guess some people don't. I for one feel starved for attention at times. I can only understand what you allow me to understand. If you think any of these things are true about me then you don't understand me at all. -
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Still not about you.
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If only you lived around me, I woulda came upto the dude and slapped him. YEA and it wuold b a B****-SLAP too
wellllllllllllllllllll since i cant do taht, then either you b-slap the dude OR ignore him.... or pretend like you dont care when he talks :/
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I'm eating a candy cane and it's not pepperminty. T.T
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good job.... who are you referring to?
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Thanks.
You figure out. You wouldn't know him.
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