I dedicate this one to my uncle1
Slain by the rope he tied himself2
his will to die, gives me the control to live3
but what do you do when they won't let you scream?4
when you're suffocating from the pressure5
when you cry but can't heal, fell the tears down your face6
so numb7
while the laments have no purpose any longer8
but you continue to beg the storm: WHY?9
Are you lucky the the trigger wasn't pulled,10
one more pill taken when your head11
aches from thinking, knowing, experiencing12
LIFE13
So close to death, my dreams are 14
the waking nightmares of my father cry tears15
i never knew he had to a suicide note so16
short of words but too full of meaning17
So was your death uncle Bo18
This Lamentations comes not from the bible but from19
the scrolls in my lap chronolizing my life with20
YOU21
The services are over the deed is done22
and all i have left of you is a cheap23
program and t shirt, albums of what24
you looked like25
I pray that who you left behind honors you26
and your memory......well what's left.27
In a list
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Comments
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This is very full of emotion. I sense you feel loss, pain, and sorrow. Anger at a wasted life. Anger at being left without someone you cared for greatly. Also, afraid.
You wrote this very well. It in my opinion is harder on the person that a suicide leaves behind.
I don't want to say anything bad about your loved one. I don't know him. Don't pretend to know how much he was suffering and all. But I think that the person who actually does commit suicide is selfish.
They don't take in what they are doing to hurt the people who care about them. They only think about what pain they are suffering now. Not what they will be causing others when they are through.
Thanks for sharing this heart felt story. I grieve with thee. And understand that you are not alone in your pain. I am here if you need me.

