It was around 4:00 yesterday afternoon when my father called to tell me my letter from the university I applied to had come back, un-opened of course.1
I waited for what seemed like a decade for my father to open it, to read it and to reveal my destiny, my hope, my dream, my one way ticket to a life in which I could only wish for in my wildest dreams.2
To my surprise (Not really) I was declined my acceptance in the course in which I enrolled and it was suggested I try for something different.3
My destiny was destroyed, my hopes were annihilated and my dreams were shattered into a million shards of nothingness. 4
I took some time to mourn my existence by doing house chores while listening to Linkin Park and crying every so often just to make sure my eyes didn’t dry out, and I went blind. 5
I Text messaged my partner to tell him, for him to call me and tell me it was alright and that we would find something else, which surprisingly made me feel even more disappointed in myself, like I had let him down.6
I was so down that I even declined sex. My way of making love and exploring passion with the man I love so dearly.7
So now it is the morning after.8
I have applied to four supermarkets and am attempting to apply for as many jobs as I can think of. 9
I am also looking at doing a course in Aged Care or in the field of Alcohol.10
Maybe something in which I can work towards educating youth about, which would be great because I know a shit load about what alcohol can do to people and their family, friends, lovers etc.11
Something I can make a career out of while I work on my writing. That way in a few years time when I think I can do better, I can apply again.12
I won’t give up, nor will I give in. I will practice; I will better myself in my passion.13
I will be published one day. I will have a job in the field of writing. It’s just a matter of time and perseverance , of determination and passion.14
I know I can do it. Just watch me. 15
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Keep on going and try again. Like that Aaliyah song "Try Again"
"Dust yourself off and try again".
In the beginning, I liked the way you slipped in words like "annihilate" and "shattered". Makes it more powerful, in my opinion.
gles!
--Aden
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You will find what's yours blairy, don't worry...or give up. No more crying. You will be fine...you're too strong not to be.
Best of luck sweetheart...
Ri
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Is This a Surprise?
A)"You will practice." Practice what?
There are other schools.
C)Do you REALLY want this?
D)How much?
E)It has been my experience with you that you are extremely willful and stubborn. I'm not sure you want good advice...or ANY advice.
F)Sobbing is not the answer.
G)Learning English is. 1)Grammar...2)Spelling...3)Punctuation
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This seemed rude.
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Go girl!
's you are one of the most motivated ppl I know, I know you'lll get where you want to go. Keep going Blairy!
Cheers
Becca
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Hey, you go girl...
If you put every ounce of your being into getting what you want, you absolutely cannot be denied. It's the law of the universe. Keep on pluggin' Blair; you'll get it.
al
p.s. as just an aside, google the poem entitled "Success" by Berton Brailey. I hope it might be as inspiring to you as it is to me. Whenever I feel thwarted I remember these words, dig my heels in and get back to the grindstone. -
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Thank you firstly for reading and commenting and secondly for your words of encouragement.
I will def look up the poem that you suggested.
Blair
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