For Potter R. Wilson

Part 1: The Basics 1

1. What is your full name? Potter R. Wilson2

2. Where and when were you born? I don’t know where but I was born on a Sunday in June during a summer shower.3

3. Who are/were your parents? ( their names, occupations, personalities, etc.)
Monica Wilson. Enough said. I never met my father; I don’t need to, what kind of bastard leaves his wife for another woman.4

4. Do you have any siblings? What are/were they like?
Moss, too cocky for his own good; daisy too pretty for her own good; Leaf, too smart for his own good; Chrys is too trusting for her own good. And they’re all annoying.5

5. Where do you live now, and with whom? Describe the place and the person/people.
My mom, of course. Well, when she hasn’t kicked me out for something. Our apartments pretty small but we all fit some how, plus what ever in home man toy she’s catering too at the moment. My family despite its brokenness is pretty stable. We’ve learn to play with the hand we’ve been dealt. We like things to be systematic (us kids that is) anything out of the ordinary throws us off. This is often refuted after so many strange males in and out. But that’s who we are at the core.6

6. What is your occupation?
I work as an assistant to the greatest photographer in our state. I spend my free time there working and learning. I’m not one for fashion, but it amazes me how no two seasons are ever alike and where artists get their inspiration.7

7. Write a full physical description of yourself. You might want to consider factors such as: height, weight, race, hair and eye color, style of dress, and any tattoos, scars, or distinguishing marks.
I assume my dad’s Hispanic cause I’m not pale white like my sibs, but more of an olive cream. I have dark red hair that’s furiously curly and thick at any length everywhere (in case you’re wondering). My eyes are deep blue like ocean water with a small hint of green. I’m about 5’6. Tall enough not to be short, but still I don’t tower over people. I usually dressed in jeans and a make shift band shirt. My jeans recently have been designer thanks to Harry and I get the latest band paraphernalia from Lex. I have a tattoo of charms around my ankle for good luck. It has all my fam’s star signs plus a question mark (?) to signify my feeling of loss. There is apparently an atom type birthmark on left shoulder but I’ve never seen it. Oh and three little beauty marks in ‘V’ shape on the crest of my nose! 8

8. To which social class do you belong?
You have to ask. I’m poor, but we live richly thanks to a usual two paychecks. Moss will be working soon two. Maybe then we can move to a better place or get a car. But right now we prefer heat and food in our belies over more comfortable living arrangements (well, all except Daisy)9

9. Do you have any allergies, diseases, or other physical weaknesses?
I’m lactose intolerant. 10

10. Are you right- or left-handed?
Neither, or both maybe.
11. What does your voice sound like?
My voice is pretty even and in the middle. I don’t sing. But when I’m with Lex he says he can hears more sultry tone. He says it gets him going when he hears my husky tenor. I didn’t think my voice was that deep, but then again...lots of girls have a valley girl syndrome at the moment!11

12. What words and/or phrases do you use very frequently?
Fuck! is my fav interjection. I don’t say it a lot but when I do it just intensifies how I feel at the moment.12

13. What do you have in your pockets?
My house keys, I.D. card, and this blue gem I've ehad since birth.13

14. Do you have any quirks, strange mannerisms, annoying habits, or other defining characteristics?
I always feel a door before I open it. I’d like to say in happened in between fire safety week and the first time I saw my mom dancing the horizontal tango14

Part 2: Growing Up 15

15. How would you describe your childhood in general?
Painful. I’m not going to get too sentimental here, but my mom never has been that maternal type mom. Especially not with her oldest (i.e. me). I think that she suffers from long term or chronic postpartum depression. Maybe after the others she healed, but with me she just never developed the I love you thing. Granted she hates all of us. We stole her youth. In order of favs it’s Chrys, cause she’s the youngest and hasn’t learned to piss mom off; Daisy takes after mom so she’s next; leaf is good at pleasing mom I don’t know how but it might be that she just never has anything to yell at him about, compliments to moiré. Now Moss should actually come before Daisy. If I had to be frank he’s a dead ringer for mom’s type of guy. Silent, tall, muscular, and cocky, also (from a sisterly stand point) hot. But he prefers to stand lower on the lists. He’s never hit a woman but he’ll yell his lungs out. And then there’s me. I was the first thief of her youth. I remind her of my father some how, but funny thing is Monica never actually gets around to remembering. Idaknow. She’s just a bitch.16

16. What is your earliest memory?
Wow my earliest thought is…well believe it or not, my dad. I never knew him, but I know her knew me. I also know for sure in my mind that he remembers. He’s probably drinking his life away because of his mistake and wishes to see me. I used to think that mom moved around so much to keep him from finding us. Not so much maternal protection but she must have really hated him to not even pawn me off on him. Oh, well the bastard probably doesn’t even know where I am. Let alone want me. He probably would rape me or something…17

17. How much schooling have you had?
I am a 11.5 student. That means approximately junior in their fifth month of school18

18. Did you enjoy school?
I hate going to school. The stuff just seems pointless. To tell you the truth fashion and photography/ film has nothing to do with any of my core classes except on a far fetch maybe math. But besides that no. And the social aspect isn’t too hot either.19

19. Where did you learn most of your skills and other abilities?
I know I talk a lot of shit, but Monica is a pretty good caregiver. In her own demented way she taught me the pleasures and dangers of relationships and sex. She helped me cross the threshold of a child and a young adult. I.E. she didn’t panic with me as blood trickled down in between my legs. Instead she told me to sit my ass in the tub. Ran hot water poured in Epson salt and her own precious bath salts and bubble bath. She told me to relax as she massaged my arms, back, and legs and feet. I felt really loved then. Of course then she told me not to fuck up any more of her sheets and that she would buy a new mattress just b/c I had an accident. I did the same with Daisy cause mom wasn’t there. I plan to be there for Chrysanthemum as well.
Any way, she taught me, before all the slutty things became common knowledge, what it meant to be a real woman. Poise, respect, and Self-confidence. I may not wear hosiery or make up but I try to be “lady” like just in hope that the “real” Monica will show up again.20

20. While growing up, did you have any role models? If so, describe them.
I actually had a girl crush on Vera Wang. I saw her as the exotic woman who tore herself from her family to become what she really wanted to be. I’m not gay but I had the hots for who she was. I wanted to just be near her. But when I met her in person my freshman year, first day at the Occident, all those feelings dissipated. Sure I was in awe of her but not in a I’d kiss her type way.21

21. While growing up, how did you get along with the other members of your family?
I have grand parents. Their really young cause mom had me when she was 22 and Nana had mom back then when she was 16. We only see them on Christmas and the fourth of July. We only hear from them on thanksgiving and our individual birthdays. Grit gave up trying to get mom remarried (did I mention my mom had actually been married when she had me) but Monica refused, so he gave up. With them I’m only second to Chrys cause she’s the youngest, but I get brownie points for being born during wedlock, as if I could control it. But it doesn’t count for much. They once offered to take us all way but we refused so they shunned us. But on Chrys and Moss’s birthdays I received a “keep up the good work!” card from them as well. No money but they seemed to be thinking about me. Maybe they disinherited mom and I’m next in line to the fortune. Hope I don’t have to marry a Fredrik22

22. As a child, what did you want to be when you grew up?
At one point I wanted to be a snowboard queen, which I still work on, but when I saw a photo shoot on the Landing one year, seventh grade, my whole objective changed. I wanted to shoot snowboard queens (with a camera not a weapon)23

23. As a child, what were your favorite activities?
Pretending to skate down icy slope on my bed!...and my Hollywood kiss24

24. As a child, what kinds of personality traits did you display?
I was quiet until I started karate. I mean I’m still quiet in a hermit sense, but if I need to speak up I will. I was also very jumpy. I always thought someone was watching me.25

25. As a child, were you popular? Who were your friends, and what were they like?
Hellas yes I was, sadly. Linda and I were thick as thieves, well I guess I was thick she has away seemed just average, if a diva could be average. We ruled the house back then. But alas we hate each other now. She’s risen to the top of the social ladder and prefers to avoid it.26

26. When and with whom was your first kiss?
My first kiss was Colin James. We were actually on the slopes. I had fallen and my favored word was born. “Fuck!” I had said. I was so pissed and not to mention I had fallen during a race against him. But he stopped picked me up and told me he just wanted to get me alone. Then we kissed. He still had apple Tasty Freeze on his lips and breath. Mixed with my cherry ice it wasn’t bad. He even slipped a little tongue. It wasn’t until we got back to a private hut that I had my first make out.27

27. Are you a virgin? If not, when and with whom did you lose your virginity?
I’m still a virgin, but just barely I think. I am physically but if you could read my mind when Lex and I make out. Or the things we’ve done...wish we would do…yeah definitely not a virgin hearted person.

28. If you are a supernatural being (i.e. mage, werewolf, vampire), tell the story of how you became what you are or first learned of your own abilities. If you are just a normal human, describe any influences in your past that led you to do the things you do today.
Well, I’m pretty normal. Except I have the uncanny ability to break things around me. Like it’s only when I’m mad but stuff will implode or spontaneously combust…really weird.28

Part 3: Past Influences

29. What do you consider the most important event of your life so far?
The day I met Harry. He opened a new possibility for my life. I didn’t have to wish any more. With his help I have rise to the amateur photographer I am today.

30. Who has had the most influence on you?
My family and Harry. I plan my life around them in the sense that I won’t make an important decision unless I thing how it will reflect on to them. If I feel pissed and want to slap someone, what would happen if Harry found out? What if that person has a younger sibling and Chrys starts to get picked on? You know.

31. What do you consider your greatest achievement?
Learning to walk away from Monica when she’s bitchin'

32. What is your greatest regret?
Never knowing my father…I know I said I didn’t care but, there is this feeling that things would have been different if I had at least known him a little.

33. What is the most evil thing you have ever done?
I beat the crap out of my best friend and completely sabotaged everything of hers I could get my hands on when I found out she started a rumor about me. I was pissed and I knew she’d started to talk behind my back any way

34. Do you have a criminal record of any kind?
Except for Olympic Tardy Winner in Chem class, no.29

35. When was the time you were the most frightened?
I was ten and I saw my mom being beaten by a grown man.30

36. What is the most embarrassing thing ever to happen to you?
When Lex first touched me. It was just different cause he was older not my same grade and he was just awesome and I felt like some kid with their baby sitter. I was so freaked, so i farted. Definately not my finest moment.

37. If you could change one thing from your past, what would it be, and why?
My mom would have never named me Potter. I mean who name’s their kid Potter, male or female. Yes everyone beside Daisy has a fucked up name too but mine is especially bad. I hate her for it.

38. What is your best memory?
My first taste of wine. In one night five people told me they loved me. My mom, my boyfriend Lex, Linda of all people, a drunk guy on the street after I helped him up, and my sister Chrys (who says it all the time but it still felt good)31

39. What is your worst memory?
My first taste of wine. The aftermath, the hang over sucked. The puking really sucked. And the feeling of being smothered in some way. So I don’t heavily drink just socially.32

Part 4: Beliefs And Opinions

40. Are you basically optimistic or pessimistic?
Depends on whether the sun is up and if I’m at home in my bed.

41. What is your greatest fear?
That Monica won’t come home at all one night. I know I bitch but that’s my mom. I have to feel something for her.

42. What are your religious views?
I respect people’s choice but the whole vampire/ witch reverence is a little farce.

43. What are your political views?
Their all bastards that fuck, so who cares?

44. What are your views on sex?
I actually believe it should be someone you truly love. I can’t believe I’m saying this but if you only feel “it” then and not all the time, then you should wait. I’m not even sure if Lex is my one.

45. Are you able to kill? Under what circumstances do you find killing to be acceptable? Or unacceptable?
Only if someone’s or my life is in danger and there is no other choice. I don’t want to place my life above anyone else’s

46. In your opinion, what is the most evil thing any human being could do?
Lie. It just creates trouble. It’s easy to get over the ugly truth, but a pretty, ugly lie can hurt for ages.

47. Do you believe in the existence of soul mates and/or true love?
Idakno, kinda. I’ve never felt that way. But when I see it in people’s eyes it makes me wish for it. But I am also confident that not everyone will find their someone, so I hate the system.

48. What do you believe makes a successful life?
If you can wake up comfortable with who you are, and you have done your best to be yourself despite casts then you’re successful.

49. How honest are you about your thoughts and feelings (i.e. do you hide your true self from others, and in what way)?
Not really. I don’t lie but I’m not openly truthful about the people closest to me. I don’t want to push them away, like I did my mom. But people I hate I’m fire truthful.33

50. Do you have any biases or prejudices?
I am bias against preppy looking people only because the look down at me. Actually, anyone who doesn’t deserve their life and parades their “wealth” around for every one to see I automatically dislike.

51. Is there anything you absolutely refuse to do under any circumstances? Why do you refuse to do it?
I refuse to be forced into any decision. I don’t like ultimatum situations. I say, “Fuck you.” And I walk away. I leave it in their hands. I like to have my own will. When people take that freedom/ right away I feel stunted and child like.

52. Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)?
I would die for my family and friends. Not that I have many friends, but there is a small part of me that would beat the crap out of any one who would dare to put their hands on Linda Stupid ea but I think there is still a small piece of her that misses our friendship, but we’re in two different worlds now and can’t mix. But I’d die for anyone who’d die for me.34


Part 5: Relationships With Others

53. In general, how do you treat others (politely, rudely, by keeping them at a distance, etc.)? Does your treatment of them change depending on how well you know them, and if so, how?
I used to keep people close nut now it just weighs me down cause I feel like I’m either lying to them or their lying to me. Like I said. With Linda I never felt this way. I don’t think she’s too happy either, but we put on a good face in front of each other.

54. Who is the most important person in your life, and why?
Chrys. She keeps me going. If she weren’t the youngest I would have either left home/ dropped out / or both.
55. Who is the person you respect the most, and why?
I respect Leaf a lot. He has to put up a lot for a kid his age. Not as much as me. But he can’t do anything to better his life. I was able to get a job and runaway. He’s pretty handicapped and his world revolves around science and school outside of that he’s lost. But he still pulls his weight. The kid has done my homework several times when I’m out working or doing something to find mom after one of her binges. 35

56. Who are your friends? Do you have a best friend? Describe these people.
My “friends” are Lex’s buddies Carol and Drake. My friends are Harry and Colin.36

57. Do you have a spouse or significant other? If so, describe this person.
Lex and I have been off and on since my freshman year. I think he’s cheated on me but I can never actually prove it. Plus we’ve never fucked, but still I have this weird feeling he’s keeping something. And his parents are always home, but never around…weird.37

58. Have you ever been in love? If so, describe what happened.
I have never felt that. I don’t know if I ever will. I’ve felt lust plenty times. But lust is purely physical and doesn’t last.38

59. What do you look for in a potential lover?
I need someone spontaneous. Someone will care for me despite everything. They will piss me off constantly and I won’t ever get enough. Sex with that person will be awesome, because our love will fuel it. And I know I sound like a hopeless romantic but I know that just cuddling won’t be enough sometimes, but he be ok with it.39

60. How close are you to your family?
Immediate you’d think we were but I think we’re pretty separate. At least mom, Moss, and I. Mom well is mom. Then Moss and I are Polar opposites so we rarely agree. The others have to stick together because the already know that at a moment notice on of us older three could be gone.40

61. Have you started your own family? If so, describe them. If not, do you want to? Why or why not?
No. And Idakno. I guess what ever happens, happens. I’m not ready right now for kids but it’s possible I guess.41

62. Who would you turn to if you were in desperate need of help?
I would turn to Colin surprisingly. We’ve always had a secret packed since that day at the Slopes. I know I can count on him for discrepancy.42

63. Do you trust anyone to protect you? Who, and why?
I trust no one. Except for maybe Colin and Harry, but I have this feeling that hen it counts I won’t be able to get to them. Somewhere this hidden guardian will save me, but I might just be hallucinating.43

64. If you died or went missing, who would miss you?
I’d miss my family and the fashion world.44

65. Who is the person you despise the most, and why?
I despise Linda. It’s love hate. I miss being her friend but what she did was wrong and I’ll never forgive her unless she apologizes first. Probably not even then.45

66. Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?
I enjoy arguing it relieves stress. Not that it doesn’t create stress too. But I get off by making others feel as miserable as I do, when they deserve it.46

67. Do you tend to take on leadership roles in social situations?
I don’t do social.47

68. Do you like interacting with large groups of people? Why or why not?
I hate mob mentality but I prefer it. It’s harder for a group of people to single out your weakness than for a single person.48

69. Do you care what others think of you?
I don’t give a rat’s ass what others think of me for the most part. But only when it counts and is relevant like a job.49

Part 6: Likes And Dislikes 50

70. What is/are your favorite hobbies and pastimes?
Hanging out at the cathedral or Occidental
71. What is your most treasured possession?
My locket. I’ve had it forever. But I never wear it51

72. What is your favorite color?
Grey like the mist.52

73. What is your favorite food?
Veggies53

74. What, if anything, do you like to read?
Photography and fashion shot articles54

75. What is your idea of good entertainment (consider music, movies, art, etc.)?
America next top model, Project Runway.55

76. Do you smoke, drink, or use drugs? If so, why? Do you want to quit?
No.56

77. How do you spend a typical Saturday night?
Hang out I the cathedral with my locket and wonder about my dad.

78. What makes you laugh?
My brother Moss.

79. What, if anything, shocks or offends you?
Rudeness and hubris

80. What would you do if you had insomnia and had to find something to do to amuse yourself?
I’d walk to the park just over the bridge and watch the water in the summer. In the dead of winter I hang out at the Slopes.

81. How do you deal with stress?
I don’t stress, when something straight of the ordinary happens I freak.

82. Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan?
I always have plan. Not concrete but kinda an individual agenda for each day. Some thing big would have to disrupt it and then I get pissed.

83. What are your pet peeves?
Preps. Enough said.57

Part 7: Self Image58

84. Describe the routine of a normal day for you. How do you feel when this routine is disrupted?
School, work, home, Repeat. I only get mad when I’m late for one of these and I just get pissy but then again…oh never mind. 59

85. What is your greatest strength as a person?
My self-assertiveness60

86. What is your greatest weakness?
My reliance on Lex I know the day will come when he breaks my heart.61

87. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?
I’d know who my father was62

88. Are you generally introverted or extroverted?
Intro. I like myself better.63

89. Are you generally organized or messy?
Organized64

90. Name three things you consider yourself to be very good at, and three things you consider yourself to be very bad at.
I’m good at fighting, taking pictures, getting out of trouble.
I’m bad at hiding, staying out of trouble, and keeping my mouth h (which usually gets me into trouble)65

91. Do you like yourself?
Yes and No. I love who I am but I do some really dumb shit.66

92. What are your reasons for being an adventurer (or doing the strange and heroic things that characters do)? Are your real reasons for doing this different than the ones you tell people in public? (If so, detail both sets of reasons...)
I have no comment. 67

93. What goal do you most want to accomplish in your lifetime?
Becoming a world-renowned photographer.68

94. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Out of high school and in my sophomore yea of college. 69

95. If you could choose, how would you want to die?
Peacefully and on my own.70

96. If you knew you were going to die in 24 hours, name three things you would do in the time you had left?
Have sex, take naked pictures and give them to random people, and send my dad the letter I wrote him when I first got my period.71

97. What is the one thing for which you would most like to be remembered after your death?
My art.72

98. What three words best describe your personality?
Quirky, fun, mean73

99. What three words would others probably use to describe you?
Weird, lame, slut74