How We Were

1 year and 4 months.1

16 months.2

64 weeks.3

1920 days....4

My longest relationship.5

Like a lost petal, separated from the flower, crushed, alone and dying; a heart without love.6

Its been this long now, why does it feel like it's near the end?7

After everything, surviving all the tests, all the problems, all the threats, why now?8

We always said we'd be friends.9

That if our eyes met, we'd say hello. 10

If our bodies brushed, we'd hug.11

If our lips ached, we'd kiss.12

If our touch flickered, we'd love.13

But, is that possible?14

What happened to us?15

Where have we gone?16

We used to be so shy around the other.17

You used to be the funny one.18

I used to be the shier one.19

And now, we're so confident.20

I'm the funny one now.21

You're the shier.22

Where did it all go wrong? Or has it not? Am I reading these signs wrong? Am I not getting the right idea?23

A new relationship is like the budding roses of spring, everything's so new and fresh, so delicate, so peaceful, so cautious. The harshness of winter is yet to come. Yet the burn of the summer is yet to arrive.24

I miss how we were, in that honeymoon stage.25

How we managed to keep the other happy, how nothing upset the other. Yet now, we walk on eggshells.26

Wondering if this is the last time we'll touch, we'll hug, we'll kiss.27

Taunting images test our trust.28

Where did our trust go?29

When did it go?30

Is it possible to get it back?31

Is it possible to go back?32

To how we once were?33

Author notes

The muse disappeared when this new bf appeared, not sure why...
Kendal, you're stories (the vampires one of Laramie and Chase ) inspired me to write... hopefully, my muse is back.

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  • bird-mad girl
    December 8, 2008
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    so I wanted to come back and leave a real comment, I commented your poem on ap so I thought it'd be fair to come back and leave one here!

    anyway!

    I liked all the references to flowers and how that theme was repeated in your piece. I liked how it was a gentle detail and not overused but beautifully placed in your piece.

    same with the use of seasons.

    I know there are a lot of personal aspects to your piece but since reading your AN and did think of Laramie and Chase and they were and what it was like when they were apart. I miss them a lot.

    I hope your muse stays, you as well!

    love you
    HNB
    x

  • bird-mad girl
    December 7, 2008

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    wow. I inspired you? really? I miss those two... but I feel like they're lost to me. maybe someday they'll come back and I'll hear their voices and be able to finish their story but I can't right now.

    I'm glad to see that you're back. I missed reading from you, a lot. I'm really really happy... but relaxed, like in a state of peace. I hope you stick around

    I feel kind of scatterbrained. I guess I'm too consumed by seeing that you're back to really write a comment about your piece. Sowy. I'll come back to this and leave a real comment later.

    I missed you
    && I love you
    ♥