She runs Pt 2

She runs.1

Away from her parents and their problems2

Distancing herself in denial that things aren’t as bad as they seem3

But still their shouts reach her bed room trapping her in the four walled 4

house she once called refuge.5

Now she in stuck on the never-ending tracks that she dug herself. Her 6

reason fades away to the red rivers she finds herself drowning in. Never 7

went for polo so she thinks that padding deeper will bring her to the 8

crispness of reality and the pain will lose it’s hold.9

But in her desperation to get away she’s lost herself in the white flags 10

posted like sentries calling out for help in a deaf society. 11

But her ears will always hear the damning criticism that he whispered to 12

her while the mother could only cry. Stop carving roads into your skin 13

because they’re taking you nowhere. 14

She’s going nowhere on her self made trails.15

So she runs16

A lab rat who follows example and runs around on it’s wheel seeking 17

safety and refuge but the journey only leads to more tracks and less 18

feelings, more meaningless “I told you so’s” and confusing stares from 19

mean-wellers who never seem to get it right. Soon it’s just all she can do 20

not to streak out from their restraints and rip across the winding lanes just 21

to end it all…22

Her breath quickens. Suffocating underneath the pressure from school. 23

Her parents. Life. The world. Herself. Too anxious to be worried about what 24

is to come, too late to stop and think about it. Every roads that once 25

seemed clear is now flooded with endless impurities and film. They’re 26

closing faster now and she doesn’t know what to do. Nothing left to do but 27

finish what she started, and leave this race once and for all. It’s always the 28

same end time to get started. Time to get away. Can’t rest no stopping this 29

time.30

Keep running31