No choice1
Every mom wishes she had chosen differently 2
When it comes to their child but few whether to have it.3
When a woman loses her child4
Something in her dies5
I mean that literally in both definitions6
That her body could be so rejecting to kills a fruit she was posed to cultivate7
That gnawing pain inside the whispers8
Regret and self hatred for the 9
second time around10
Am I not good enough is there something wrong with me11
What does this mean 12
Will I never bear children13
Is this god’s way of punishing premarital sex14
She sits n the couch day by day rubbing her navel 15
Hoping that by positives vibes the doctors words will be reversed16
“I’m sorry. Your child has been…blah, blah…bodily function…blah, 17
blah…happens all the time…blah, blah…try again…blah.” 18
But how can you feel loss when you 19
Should feel guilty20
This is what you wanted isn’t it21
In five days you would have killed it any way22
No not it him/ her. Her baby. Everything could have been fine she thinks just the two of 23
them, and if god wills the three of them24
But the dream shatters again looking in her full length 25
Mirror as her stomach grows small instead of large26
Such is the sorrow of a miscarriage 27
Would things have changed had she had the choice28
Does it really matter29
Of course it does as an American having 30
Our choices ripped out of our hands by nature just makes us realize how 31
Powerless we really are 32
And no one likes to feel that way33
She continues to draw little stick pictures of what theirs lives would have been like. 34
How He would have loved to have a son or a little girl to cradle 35
In the morning but all those dream are gone 36
All that remains is a sad Mother without a Child wondering where she went wrong37
Author notes
This is for me and all women who have been cheated out of the chance to give birth
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Comments
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This is such a great write. It really is. I feel the pain, loss and yes even anger at your loss. This really is good. I can even relate somewhat. I have never misscarried however nor have I ever had children. Though my husband and I wanted them. Never been blessed. So I feel the loss, and anger too.
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A truly emotional and heartbreaking poem. You used your words wonderfully, and I am sorry for your loss.
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That was fantastic, very heartfelt.
beginning: 4, language: 4, plot: 3, ending: 4, dialog: 4, characters: 3.
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awww so sad the loss of a child is a horrible thing it really is. This is wonderfully written. thanks for sharing it and thanks for entering it into my contest.
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