mothers day

It comes just once like every year and i could never forget the times we had.  The first day i could remember my mothers day, i didnt really know what is what.  But in school we had to make a card to you, and so i did and gave it to you. You smiled and gave me a hug. Next year i did something different.  I was about 9 years old when i made my own card at home and just gave it to you.  You smiled and gave me a hug.  When i was 11, I wanted to give you something really special.  So i made a book of photos with you and the family together and gave it to you.  You smiled and gave me a hug.  12, I was being a brat and wanted to go over my friends house, not giving you anything but complaints. But you let me go to his house.  You smiled and gave me a hug.  At 13,  I gave you something really special.  We all went out to eat that day and i payed 50 dollars for it.  You later smiled and gave me a hug.  At 14, I made you a card again like the old days, and also a picture of me in there.  You smiled and gave me a hug.  At 15, The whole family went on a vacation to Las Vegas.  You smiled and gave me a hug.  At 16, The whole family went on a vacation to Florida.  You smiled and gave me a hug.  At 17, I told you and dad to use my money and go out on a date together alone. It cost me around 100 but i didnt mind. You smiled and gave me a hug.  At 18, My sisters and I decided to let you and dad go on a vacation alone together for 2 weeks.  You smiled and gave me a hug.   19, in which i currently am right now,  You are not here... and wont be here in the future to come.  But all i want to say to you mommy... is that i still care for you.  But then i notice that i wont get that special "smile and hug" from you anymore.  i love you.1