Dear God,1
Why must my father be so sick? Why must he be in constant pain? Hasn't he suffered enough yet? I can't stand it God! I can't bear comming home from school and seeing him in pain day after day. He doesen't deserve that! He deserves to be well, to be able to go back to work and live his life. He doesen't deserve to spend the rest of his life trapped inside his room suffering from pain and grief for the rest of his life! Please God, please take the pain away from him! Let him go, let him be free of this illness! Let me take his place! I'd do it in a heartbeat, you know I would. Let me be the one who is sick, let him be well again. Make me even more sick if you want, just let him be well, let him be healthy, make him healthy God, that is all I ask. I offer myself to you, take me instead, let him go and take me. You know I am serious, make me sick instead of him. Please God, please make him healthy again, don't let him suffer any more than he already has.2
Author notes
I use to pray this every single night, sometimes more than five times a day, for years. I stoped when I realized that God wasn't willing to make me sick instead of my father who has Cronic Fatigue Immune Dysfunction Syndrome. Obviously God has some reason for wanting my Dad (and now my sister and one of my brothers) sick. If I could I would take all of their sicknesses on myself three times worse than they feel them, I'd die for them if it would make them better. But God has other plans apparently.
A contest entry
- Give me a prayer by trekkergirl.
150 points, ended December 15, 2008, 9 entries
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Oh..its so sad to read it..its just depressing. But you know what? You have to be strong, I know it's hard to accept it, but hard things make us stronger. Sometimes, things go not the way we want, but it just pushes us harder to grow and learn, and learn how to love people, like you.
This is a really good story, I am glad you shared it with us. I remember when my grandfather was going to die, everyone was so upset and the only thing they could just cry. But they felt better after a while, Because they knew they still needed to live on, still needed to continue. I know its sad, but remember, be strong!! And keep praying. I trust that God will help you and your family!
Very emotional piece, I really like it. Its dark but I did enjoy reading it. I hope your family will get better soon. If I can be any of help, feel free to find me.
Great job. Best of luck in the contest and thanks for entering it.
Denise
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You should be strong for your family, this is the challenge that God gave you and he knows that you are strong enough to face it. You are loved, and I know this is hard for you but you can do it!!!
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I know how it feels to want so bad to take an illness away from a person. To want it to be you instead. My best friend(whom I consider my sister), Rachel has Leukemia, it has been put into remission once and came back. They couldn't get her to go into remission long enough to do a bone marrow transplant the second time.The local Children's hospital that she stayed at for treatment told her there wasn't anything else they could do. They told her she had less than a month left. That was about two months ago. Stay strong and believe. Anything can happen. My friend is living proof of that. She should have died 3 times and she's still here. So, I just want to let you know that if you need to talk, though our stories are almost completely different, I'm here. I've been through this every step of the way with her and our other friend Brittney. I even let Rachel shave my head when she lost her hair. But, because I was there and because I went through this with them our bonds are stronger. I didn't consider them to be my sisters until this happened. So, drop me an email or a message if you'd like to talk.
Sierra
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yes dear. I am very sorry for the illnesses in your family. Sometimes God does have other things in store for us than what we ourselves understand. Thanks for sharing this very emotional poem with us and thanks for entering it into my contest.
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