i still remember1
i never forgot, you know2
i just thought you should know that3
i still cry sometimes4
i still dream of you every once in a while5
i never got over you6
you were my obbsesion7
you loved me as a friend8
a sister even9
i loved you more10
its one of my faults11
i always want more12
im never satisfied13
ive always been greedy14
i can never have enough15
i take things for granted16
i make up stories in my head17
and repeat them over and over18
till i dont know whats reality anymore19
did you ever love me?20
were you even real?21
was it really you who cared that night?22
that night...23
i remember it like it was yesterday24
that night you proved you cared25
i remember i wanted to kill myself26
i had the day ready27
i planned everything out28
i was gona be home alone that whole weekend29
we were gona party30
get fucked up31
i was gona go home that friday night32
and my mom was suppose to go home to a corpse lying on the floor33
she was suppose to come home to a goodbye letter i had already written34
if it wasnt for you35
i wouldnt be here36
we talked that night37
you were mad at me38
i told you my plan39
i didnt think youd even care40
i just wanted one person to know41
im not sure if im glad that person was you42
i didnt think you cared about me that much43
that night you told me how much you loved me44
you said you never this way before45
you felt as if you knew me your whole life46
though we had just met a week before47
you said i was the best friend you ever met48
that you would miss me and probably kill yourself too49
that night you snuck out50
you came to my house and we talked all night long51
the night of the party came52
we got fucked up53
i got really drunk54
i got home55
you said goodnight56
i went inside57
and got the bottle58
i took every pill there was59
i remember i cried60
i remember your smile was all i could see61
and your voice telling me you loved me62
i finished the bottle63
but when the morning came64
i woke up65
the worst hang over ever66
i never told you i accually tried it67
i didnt want you to worry68
to this day you still dont know69
but i wish i would have died that night70
if i had, i wouldnt be feeling right now71
because now that your gone72
i want to die so bad again73
but this time you wont be there74
this time you wont care what i do
Author notes
this is accually a true story.. i really did try to kill myself after a party and told him and everything.. i put that he wouldnt care next time cuz he hates me now and we're not friends.. but i still miss him..
ehh just thought of this when i was coming home from mexico last night (x
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omg!!!!!!!!!!!!
dont kill yourslef!!!!!!!
plz!!! lol its very good and sad
keep it up!!!♥
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That's soooo sad.
You actully tried this?! I feel bad. Don't try to kill your self. I'll cry...
I looove the way you written this poem though. Realy pretty, and sad. I hope you fee better. 
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thanks for commenting!! :D
ya i really did do it.. it was exactly a year ago today accually..
and what was really freaky is that.. last year when i woke ip after that i had the worst hang over ever sinse i mixed up the drugs with alcohol right? and today i got food poisoning so i feel sick but just like last year X_X its like major deja vu (sp?) haha
but anyway.. i dont really plan on trying it again anytime soon.. he and i talked the other day and i told him everything.. that i tried it and stuff and we're friends again (: gawd i missed him so much!! im so happy we're gona be bffs again soon (: -
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Lol. Deja vu is right. Lol. I'm sorry that you had a headache, and, lol, you feel ill for getting food poison. Lol.
I'm glad you guys are going to be bffs again.
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wow... thats sad... i cant believe u actually tried that.. that is sooo not like you.. as far as i could tell..
well all i can say right now is cheer up.. but i know its not much help... i hope ur feeling better now and dont try that again.. plzz.. u dont wanna do that..
very well written poem though.. 3 applauses +D
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