Un Moto Di Gioja (Inside Me A Feeling)

Un moto di gioja1

Mi sento nel petto2

Che anuzia diletto3

In mezzo il timor4

Spe riam che in contento5

Fi ni sca l'af fanno6

Non sempre7

Non sempre ti ranno8

Il fa toed amor9

Il fa toed amor10

Un moto di gioja 11

Mi sento nel petto12

Che annuzia diletto13

In mezzo il timor14

Spe riam che in contento15

Fi ni sca l'af fanno16

Non sempre ti ranno17

Non sempre ti ranno18

Il fa toed amor19

Il fa toed amor20

Il fa toed amor 21

Inside me a feeling...22

I don't know exactly what to call the feeling seeing as it seemed to hammer away at all of my senses at once, but I do know that for the first time in a long time I was actually feeling some sort of…happy…emotion. A first for quite awhile. She gave me a half sideways smile as I stood stunned.23

Of joy begins burning…24

That was joy? Oh…well I guess I can see/ feel that. The unexpectedness of the moment gave me a twinge of a thrill and after that, yeah I’d call it joy. I never expected to meet someone like her…but wow. Joy, yes most definitely joy.25

Delight is returning now…26

I smiled.27

“I’m Skylar,” I said holding out my hand. She must think I’m the absolute, biggest idiot in the world, I thought as her smile grew and she took my hand. My stomach flipped and my heart seemed to flutter as her pale, smooth hand gripped my rougher, bigger one.28

“Kara,” she said. Even her voice was beautiful.29

After the pain…30

Now I was almost happy for three years of suffering I had made myself endure just to get to this moment even if it happened to be the only one we get together…and if it is…well I’ll treasure it forever but I was hoping it wouldn’t be the only one.31

No longer sent reeling…32

By what? My already chopped up heart? If anything Kara here was doing more damage than an atom bomb but in a good way of course.33

By fate and by anguish…34

Fate is a cruel , mystical thing and anguish, well the guy who made the word deserves a good dose of the stuff made by millions of suffering people around the world.35

No longer…36

And…I’m losing my train of thought! I’ve known her all of five minutes and she’s already affecting my delicately balanced, emotionally run brain.37

No longer to languish…38

Languish, languish…sounds like anguish and anything soft and squishy that makes noise, that’s what I think it would sound like. Of all the times to get sidetracked! And over something as trivial as a word. If only I carried a dictionary in my head…either way languish…let’s dive back into English class…to lose vigor or vitality…Does not moving for three days after your girlfriend breaks up with you count? Or that cold I had last month? Or another meaning is to suffer with longing. Longing? The one thing I’ve really been longing for is standing in front of me and I’m here thinking about a word.39

“Are you okay?” she asked. I snapped my head that seemed to have been leaning to the right up straight. Both of our hands fell away.40

“No,” I muttered. She gave me the weirdest look (which by the way still stunned me ) and I realized what I must have said, “I mean yes! Wait! What!? Yes, no, maybe so?” I asked. The corners of her mouth twitched up into a faint hint of a smile. I was making a complete and utter fool of myself.41

I’ll love once again…42

Yes. Yes I will.43

I’ll love once again…44

And all of that love was going to be hers. We met seconds ago and if she told me to go and jump off a cliff right now I would willingly oblige. Of all the crazy things love does to people, making them have suicidal thoughts is not one of the good ones…I need a life…as soon as the person who’ll gives me the life that I so desperately need.45

Inside me a feeling…46

A very bright, happy feeling!47

Her half smile, lip twitch turned into a half laugh that came out sounding like a snort.48

“Ellie told me you were funny,” Kara said.49

“Remind me to thank her,” I mumbled looking down.50

THANK YOU ELLIE!51

“Will do.”52

Of joy begins burning…53

I felt like I was on fire. My skin tingled and I was jumpy.54

I leaned to the left propping my hand against a table. We were silent and then she started looking around, her nose crinkling in the cutest way.55

“Do you smell that?”56

“Smell what?”57

“It smells like-Oh my God! Skylar you’re on fire!” she yelped scrambling backwards.58

“What?!” I looked around and saw the sleeve of my shirt had caught on fire because I’d leaned up against the table that had a lite candle on in it. Just my pathetic luck.59

Now I really was burning…only not with joy.60

Delight is returning…61

What?! I find this delightful in no way.62

I yanked back and start waving my arm around, panicking.63

“Stop! Drop! And roll!” Kara yelled. So I hit the deck and rolled around frantically trying to smother the flame. Laying on the floor I stared at the ceiling gasping as my arm began to sting, I’d managed to get the fire out but not before the first layer of skin was like gone. Kara came back over and knelt by my side.64

“Skylar!?” she sounded panicky herself.65

“Ow?” it came out more like a question than an actual exclamation of pain.66

“You idiot!” she laughed rolling onto the balls of her feet…but she lost her balance and landed on my fried arm. I sucked in a quick, pain filled breath as she jumped to her feet.67

I still don’t see the delight.68

Now after the pain…69

After! After!? Is that some kind of sick joke? After the pain? Why not just say “Oh no Skylar’s arm was just turned into a torch and he had to roll all over it because the person having the party decided fire extinguishers and water in the basement weren’t important and then the girl of his dreams sits on the same arm.”70

That now after the pain phrase had to be a joke.71

No longer sent reeling…72

My vision doubled as Kara helped me to my feet and out the door. She was taking me to the hospital to get my burnt, sat on arm taken care of.73

By fate and by anguish…74

Fate is still the creepy, mystical, whatever you want to call it that makes this stuff happen and anguish…well the guy who made the world still deserves what’s coming for him…but it described exactly how I felt.75

No longer…76

It took twenty-five minutes to get to the hospital any longer and I probably would have passed out from various, obvious reasons.77

No longer to languish…78

It took another half hour to actually see the doctor, but while I sat in the waiting room I sat with my head on Kara’s shoulder half asleep.79

No longer to languish...80

So we finally get ready to leave the hospital and it's about 1 in the morning.
"Need a ride home?" she asked. I personally thought it was kind of a dumb question seeing as she had the only car and I had a gimpy arm.81

I'll love once again...82

She pulled into the driveway and I turned to her.
"Thank you," I said opening the door
"For what? I sat on your arm?"
"I don't know just thank you," I pulled myself out.
"Hey what's you cell number?"
"Here," I'd writtne one down earlier just in case.
"Cool," and then she slammed her head against the back of the seat, "Rob is going to be so mad."83

I'll love once again...84

"Who?" Uh-oh.85

I'll love once again...86

"Rob. Rob is my boyfriend. I've gotta go."
I watched as she left.87

I'll love once again...88

Maybe in a galaxy far, far away but not here. Not one Earth because for now it was just me and my misery and my arm. What a dumb ending...89