The day everything changed....

When I was a little girl I had a very good life. I only had brothers but I would still play with hot-wheels,have imagination plays like going in the woods and running from creatures. My brothers never treated me any differently because I was a girl,so I guess I didn't feel as though I was a girl. The way I seen it, I was just one of the guy's. 1

When I turned 10 years old we moved,not too far from where we moved from but we left my younger childhood town. We moved somewhat out in the country,outside city limits. We found a little forest thing in the back of our house and made a club house with it. We even had our own rooms and everything. My parents would even let us camp out there sometimes since it was right in our backyard.2

After about 6 months of living there my dad brought his brother,my uncle, to come and help fix up our living room. I hadn't seen my uncle in about 6 years. I thought he was great, he would help me with chores and buy me things because I was the only girl. one day though everything changed.3

I slept on the couch so my uncle could have the bed to sleep on. I didn't like that too much having to give my bed up but one night he told me I could have the bed and he would sleep on the couch. I had a T.V in my room and me and a couple of my brothers fell asleep watching T.V on the floor. At about 2:00am I awoke to something I thought I never would in my life. My "favorite" uncle running his hands up and down my body, my ten year old body. I thought it was a dream so I laid on my stomach but the groping continued. I closed my eyes shut and kept wishing for him to stop. He didn't though,it was advancing to words. I knew then that he wasn't asleep. The words even after this longI can remember.4

"I know your young but your so beautiful."5

There were other words but I closed my ears in hope I had imagined it. When I moved my hands to my ears though,his hands only moved under my nighty, moving up and down my legs. I couldn't take no more. I knew that if I stayed there that something bad was going to happen. My parents had already had that discussion about to go to them if someone touched me in a way I didn't want to be touched. I always though "right,thats going to happen to me." Boy was I wrong.6

After about what seemed like forever and he still didn't stopo I got up and went into my brothers room. I tried to wake one of them to tell them but they never woke. I didn't know what to do so I went into the bathroom and locked myself in,crying like I never cried before. I couldn't go back into my room in case my "uncle" was still awake. I went into my parents room and cried myself to sleep at the foot of their bed. 7

The next morning my parents went to work and my "uncle" had to watch us. Of course I wouldn't talk to him and he came up to me and said," If I did anything wrong,I'm sorry." 8

To think that wasn't bad enough the creep gave me money!!!9

He went back to his home in another state that day and I didn't hear from him again. I never told my parents what happened until about a year after. You see after my uncle did what he did I was never the same. I started getting into trouble,smoking cigarettes and skipping school. Everyone thought it had to do with a boy but after that incident I didn't feel comfortable with being too close to guys. I told my parents,they got upset and called my uncle and of course he denied it. My own grandmother told my mom that I was probably just making it up to keep myself out of trouble. 10


The next 6 years I had the same thing happen to me by two other people. One being my neighbor which I told my parents but he was already in jail, and the other was a guy I didn't know. The second guy tried to rape me in an elevator when we were at a hotel in Florida. My brother had went looking for me and the elevator had opened letting me ecscape. My parents still don't know about that one and I probably won't tell them.