If I had no hearing, I truly wouldn't care
I would never have to hear the perverse things others say.
They could yell slut and whore, talk about me behind my back.
They always want to watch me cry.
A low self-esteem booster to make them feel superior.
Wouldn't it really burn their asses if
I'd hold my head high and meander on by
without even a glisten of a tear in my eyes.1
If I was deaf, I never would have heard the
resounding finality of goodbye.
I would still be me, but I'm not because I heard.
I acknowledged the echo and brokenly I stand.2
If I had no vision, I never would have seen,
that sexy face, bright, shining eyes, or that sensual smile.
I would have had the sense to run away.
I wouldn't have been blinded by your beauty.
I might have sensed what was to become.
I would not have seen your tears or the truth in your beautiful eyes.
You didn't really care.
I wouldn't have seen the ugly stares of jealousy and hate.,
that make me feel like shit.
But I can see the shell of the woman who was before there was a you.3
If I had no heart,
I wouldn't think of you with this throbbing in my chest.
I remember you so well, I close my eyes and recognition sets in.
A memory so complete, right down to your masculine scent.
If I didn't know the truth, I would swear you were there.
I wouldn't recall how I used to make you smile.
I could forget the sound of us crashing.
The words you said to me and all I had done to you
would never have been real.4
If I had no memory,
I would not think of us and the pain of a shattered heart.
But I do remember and I do feel.
I can admit with bittersweet regret,
of all the men I have loved,
you broke me the best.
Now and forever my wish is
that I had no hearing, sight, heart, or mind.
I would never have to hear the perverse things others say.
They could yell slut and whore, talk about me behind my back.
They always want to watch me cry.
A low self-esteem booster to make them feel superior.
Wouldn't it really burn their asses if
I'd hold my head high and meander on by
without even a glisten of a tear in my eyes.1
If I was deaf, I never would have heard the
resounding finality of goodbye.
I would still be me, but I'm not because I heard.
I acknowledged the echo and brokenly I stand.2
If I had no vision, I never would have seen,
that sexy face, bright, shining eyes, or that sensual smile.
I would have had the sense to run away.
I wouldn't have been blinded by your beauty.
I might have sensed what was to become.
I would not have seen your tears or the truth in your beautiful eyes.
You didn't really care.
I wouldn't have seen the ugly stares of jealousy and hate.,
that make me feel like shit.
But I can see the shell of the woman who was before there was a you.3
If I had no heart,
I wouldn't think of you with this throbbing in my chest.
I remember you so well, I close my eyes and recognition sets in.
A memory so complete, right down to your masculine scent.
If I didn't know the truth, I would swear you were there.
I wouldn't recall how I used to make you smile.
I could forget the sound of us crashing.
The words you said to me and all I had done to you
would never have been real.4
If I had no memory,
I would not think of us and the pain of a shattered heart.
But I do remember and I do feel.
I can admit with bittersweet regret,
of all the men I have loved,
you broke me the best.
Now and forever my wish is
that I had no hearing, sight, heart, or mind.
Adding your comment:
But really well written.
