Loneliness

I have been broken so many times... again and again by people I once considered friends, I once shared my secrets with that now I can't feel the sentiment of love and trust... I don't trust anyone around me and maybe because of that I don't who is good or bad; everyone's so fake and distant... this loneliness is eating me away into insanity.

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I hate a lot of things... but something i hate from the bottom of my heart is the thing so common... Unjustice...
Maybe because I have been a victim of this many times... but let me assure you... its so bad that it sucks. And when something really sucks... you are so heartbroken and it feel like your heart has combusted!
Another thing I hate is defeat... being a loser... being weak... it makes me go insane when I ask myself again and again... WHY WHY WHY? Why me?... and thats why i get afraid to participate in opportunites (even though in the end i do it anyway...) but that frighteness that grips my heart in such a tight hold makes me want to kill myself.
And death... time is flying! I dont know when its night and when its day...
and then there is this thing if i even be satisfied of how i spent my life when i am on my deathbed.
everything creeps me out.

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  • Thorn-on-the-Rose
    November 13, 2008

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    Beautiful, quite a long sentence, but it's beautiful and truely describes the feeling of loneliness at it's worst, very sad, very touching, great job =]

    -Dani


  • Oddems.
    November 12, 2008

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    I myself have issues with trusting people and sometimes end up lying just so they won't know anything. Sad, but true. The sentence was a bit messy, but it conveyed the emotion well. Good luck!

    PR


  • Forgotten Anomaly
    November 11, 2008

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    Ah, I can relate to this alot... I have serious issues with not trusting people to the point where I isolate myself from society all together. That is a long sentense butI know its for the contest (I think I entered that one). Sorry to hear your in the same boat as me, its a long and torturous ride.


    • Ayesha Raees
      November 12, 2008
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      Thanks for the comment! ^^
      Yes... you are right... its really hard to trust people these days!
      everyones soooo FAKE!